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Wide Load Running

Monday, November 19, 2012

Ever heard of NaNoWriMo?

every November the world is challenged to write. It doesn't have to be good writing, and it doesn't have to go beyond your own computer. Just sit down, and write, 50,000 words in one month.

Holy cow 50,000 seems like a lot....but then again so does losing 100 pounds. It's a lot like Sparkpeople - make a plan and stick with it.

I couldn't come up with anything to write about, until I started talking to my Mom. She told me "write what you know." what do I know....I know what it feels like to be the fat kid. I know what it feels like to get on an elliptical and struggle for the first time.

More than that, I know what it is to have a dream, a goal, the motivation to get me there. My 50,000 words are (I hope) going to serve as a self-reflection of the last two years and rededication to making my goals.

There is one Spark'er out there who, i know if she reads this, will know she's part of the cause of the removtivation. She's got a very similar story to me, and once upon a time only a few pounds seperated us. We used to challenge each other to weight loss goals -- but our stories split. Hers is the one of the girl who never lost sight of her goal. Mine is the one of the girl leaping and trying to make it. I WILL make it, and I thank you for your motivation! You know who you are!

I'm only 1 day into writing my novel, and the side effect? I'm closing my laptop and going to the gym because I don't want to sit on my butt all day.

Even though some of you may think it's silly, I want to share the excerpt that made me remember why I'm on this site before I jump into workout clothes and run to the gym.

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Excerpt from the novel "Wide Load Running"

If she can do this, I can do this the voices now said. 10 minutes on the elliptical became 30. 30 minutes suddenly became an hour, with the assistance of television shows that kept me from getting bored. As I worked out, if television shows didn’t keep my attention, I stared past them to the words shining on the wall ahead of me.

I know there’s slogans for working out, things like “No Pain No Gain” and “Feel the Burn,” but seriously, why would I want t hurt to make myself feel good? Even “From Pain Comes Beauty” seems silly to me, once again why would I want to hurt myself for the superficial things that others see. These words seemed the empty mantras of beach blond body builders, those who never had to work at being skinny, so they pushed themselves to extremes to be beyond skinny and into down right freakishly athletic. You know, with muscles bulging everywhere and veins popping out of their eyelids because their muscles are suck rock there’s nowhere else for blood to flow. You know, the creepy kind of athletes.

These words were different. Every machine in the room was angled to have a clear view of these words, shining like 20 feet tall silver beacon of hope and motivation for the tired. These were words designed to make you push yourself to finish the last five minutes of the workout, to go that last quarter mile.


Change your life.

I could change my life.

I could stare these words on the wall for 30 minutes a day, fantasizing about changing my life. Dreaming of someday wearing a size 10 jeans, of shopping in the junior section. Of looking cute in knit hats and trendy scarves. Of walking into a crowded room and not feeling like I was taking up too much space.

Change your life. I could change to not be the ‘fat friend’ anywhere I went. I could change to be healthy. I could fight against the ‘fat’ genes my family seemed to have, no matter what the odds.

Change your life.

Yes…I think I will change my life.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
EUEK098 11/23/2012 9:23AM

    Love the excerpt, and I CANNOT wait to read this if you decide to post it on a blog or make it available. Keep "Changing you Life," and am going to keep changing mine, the words really do resonate with the soul.

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CANES4EVER63 11/20/2012 3:33PM

    I think it's GREAT that you got off your butt (to not write, although that's a goal) to meet your other goal of weight loss! There are still 10 days of the month and I'm sure with dedication, you can write all those words, just like you WILL get to the gym to change your life! You can do it!! And it sounds like writing this reflection will really help to get your motivated. I have no doubt that you can do it. I'll race you to it :) A contest. Now. Me? I want to get into the 130s. That's my goal. It's going to take a while. I know that. But slower is better in the long run (I think I'm starting to realize this!) and it's more permanent. What's your goal going to be? Reward: a goodie. Whatever spark goodie you want, I'll gift it to you (ok, not the luxury ones, that's TOO much!) IF, and ONLY IF you beat me. Girl, this is on!

And thank you SOOOOO much for me being able to remotivate you! But your story is flawed, because I once was the girl who did lose sight of my goal. It happens. Except me losing site equals eating way too much (which could be because I eat way too little to begin with.. but shh, I'm not really admitting that to myself yet...). I still HAVE to get my cardio in. I've had gains along this journey and so have you, it happens. It always happens. I just want to get back to 145! It's amazing how just a week and a half can cause the scale to go up so much! So yes, I lost site of the goal, but I don't regret eating all of that chocolate, not at all. -It was delicious, every single bite!

So what are we going to do? FOCUS. I'm going to force you to get to the gym, even if it means me going across the entire United States from East coast to West to get your butt in gear :) I just want you to promise me that you'll be there taking that chocolate out of my hands and then throwing it on the floor, stomping on it, then putting it in the trash and covering it with nastiness. Deal?

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RUNNER12COM 11/19/2012 11:58PM

    NaNoWriMo and SparkPeople? You are definitely my kind of Spark Buddy!

Good luck. I'll be watching to read more when you're ready to share!

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BALLOUZOO 11/19/2012 10:25PM

    My daughter is doing this too!

Best wishes!

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BRENJET 11/19/2012 8:13PM

    You can do this! Thanks for the powerful blog! Keep us was so good to see your post in the chat thread today!! We care so much about you and will continue to cheer you on and help if you need us!

You Rock!!!

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CAROL- 11/19/2012 7:00PM

    My husband and daughter participate in NaNoWriMo every year. Glad you are doing this...

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MAVSMOM2 11/19/2012 6:43PM

    Love it! And yes, you will change your life. Good job motivating yourself to workout even though it wasn't what you originally intended.

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