"Torn by the storms in my head...
Monday, November 19, 2012
..like a victim of fate, born to regret." So goes the song "Torn" by Kamelot (from their new album Silverthorn, which is pure epic awesomeness by the way!!!). Every time I hear those lyrics I feel like they describe me perfectly...I have to keep reminding myself that everything I put myself through, good or bad, is all in my head. I also have to be reminded that my natural tendency is to have a fateful, grim outlook, and that it's up to me to think positive.
Last week was extraordinarily hectic and stressful, I had about 10X more work than usual, and my stomach was feeling a bit weird, which screwed up my meal schedule. I really wanted to just say "damn it all to hell" and do whatever I wanted. And yet, what I wanted every day after work was to drive straight to boot camp and release all the stress by working out. Food-wise I did have a little "encounter" with a couple of doughnuts on Friday night
, but other than that I was able to keep it together. I kept thinking about something one of trainers always asks during class: “How bad do you want it?”…well I want this more that anything else in life right now. I want this new healthy, rationality-driven lifestyle to carry me through tough times. Stress is a part of life, bad days come and go but there’s nothing more worthwhile than staying the course. I (mostly) did not fall back into the self-destructive cycle of emotional eating, and I learned once again that I’m capable of more strength and mindfulness than I give myself credit for.
So all in all, I’d say it was a pretty good week.
PS - ""Torn" just came up on my iPod (on shuffle)!!!!