Monday, November 19, 2012
Still have the cough, which is lessening with the Advair my doctor prescribed for me. It has been very draining. My energy level is not normal yet, and I get tired very easily. In addition, I had to have laser eye surgery to repair a torn retina.
I did eat my frogs by dealing with health anxiety by making the medical checkups and routine tests I have been putting off. I feel some relief over that.
I've been reading the Spark book, and have been trying to formulate goals and life purpose, and clarify my values. Having had a damaging childhood and frustration over attaining career goals, I guess my goals are to overcome the past more fully, and become the best me I can be. I have been trying to lose weight since 2006, not successfully, and I thought about just giving up on it, but I can't do that. My husband was referring to me as an artist, and I told him I don't really feel like one because I haven't touched a painting in years. He says I still have it.
My job is easy and I can tolerate it, but if I won big bucks, I'd be gone in 15 seconds. It's a job, not a career or vocation.
One of my biggest goals is to feel in charge of my life, my home, my creativity. I'm still hopeful.