Monday, November 19, 2012
It has been 25 days of juice feasting. Over the last 3 weeks something has been lacking. As I look back I know God was telling me over and over again what it was that was that was missing. However, I have been deaf and blind to it until last night.
I started my juice fast with the goal of getting my house in order, cleaning up my body and feeling healthy again. I did NOT start my fast with any spiritual direction or focus. This fast has been covered in problems of the flesh and has been riddled with disappointment from not being able to have the self-control I am used to having in the past. I kept asking MYSELF why this was. It wasn’t until I FINALLY took the problem to God that my answer came and it was here all along. She is a woman I have gotten to know over the last 3 weeks or more. We talk often of my fast and fasting in general. She always emphasized fasting with spiritual growth. Something I could relate to from my past 21 day cleanse earlier this year.
Spiritual purpose has completely lacked in this juice fast. I did not set out with any goals spiritually this time and have felt it every day. When I realized this today I see now why this fast has been riddled with problems of the flesh. So last night I set out to define what this fast is to me spiritually and welcome the Ruach back into EVERY aspect of my life! Praise Abba for dropping the scales from my eyes and allowing me to see His purpose for my fast.
I am currently reading The Daniel Fast by Susan Gregory. This book has helped me gain further spiritual insight into fasting with purpose.
I have put together a fasting covenant detailing my spiritual goals, prayer focus, and diet for the rest of my 60 day fast.