Monday, November 19, 2012
I took my weight yesterday, after being afraid to take it for the past two weeks. I just could not face the fact of gaining it all back and then some. I was stressing over it and overwhelmed with it,plus a mess up at work, shakey relationship issues and my BFF moving out. I completely shutdown and got nothing done, just knew I would lose my job, fall into a depression with an empty house, loss a friend and had gain all of my weight back and then some. The anxiety had taken over and now I have laugh at it. I did not loss my job, I am loving my house (although all I seem to do is sleep), relationship is going to be okay and I had not gain a pound back actually loss another one. I have got to get control over my need to be prefect and how I let the enemy use that need against me. I'm going to win, maybe slowly. But surely, I'm going to win!!!!!!!!!