Monday, November 19, 2012
Dear Spark Friends,
Thanks to you, I am keeping this whole plan in perspective and not being such a hard ass perfectionist. That wasn't the point of the plan to begin with. The point was to exercise more and watch what I eat, and ta da! That is still happening. But, I truly appreciate the support and wisdom because you help me on difficult days (er, lately weeks).
The other thing is, I realized my life is way more stressful, what with my husband not having a job and me running my Union and teaching college full time. Plus, all these new aches and pains that I need to manage have been a challenge. Why lie? I won't go into my latest one, which no doubt is a result of all the body work I did yesterday.
I said somewhere, that I need to be nicer to myself. I don't mean spoil myself at the expense of others, but I want to be more grateful and optimistic. The stress and workload and challenges won't change, (I am not seeking a job elsewhere and will continue to fight for my members) but my attitude can improve.
I wish I lived in France or Canada or hell, even Mexico (they take really long breaks in the afternoon), but I work and live here, in an God-blessed urban setting. My point is that I can't just recommit with actions. I have to recommit mentally to see the best in everything and try my best without beating the sh*t out of myself. That is my deep thought for the week and a very real challenge I have to sticky note everywhere.