Monday, November 19, 2012
So I had surgery on my right shoulder on November 9, 2012. I know this doesn't sound too tragic...except for the fact that I am right handed and cannot do almost anything with my left. I know! How did that work out you ask, well, I didnt have too many issues as I was able to do some things with my left hand, but I have some pretty amazing fricking friends, thats for dang sure.
Now it is time to get back on the wagon of focusing on me. I have come up with every excuse over the past three months to not do what I should to take care of me. Mainly it was my emotions that seemed to derail me. I get angry or upset and I immediately turn to food for comfort. I know that it is my choice, and I am working on it. In my head it makes sense that food has always been the one thing that has NEVER judged me in any manner whatsoever. Too bad it is also what has helped me to pack on the poundage. I am currently trying to build my meaningful relationships with friends to better cope with my emotional theme park rides.
I know I talk a lot about epiphanies, and I am sure that people must think I have lived in a cloud of blissful ignorance, whichis kind of true. I chose to ignore some major problems in my life because I was under the impression that it was better to repress than obsess. That is unfortunately so far from the truth, its like in another friggin galaxy! I do have to say that coming on here and blogging and sharing my ups and downs have been such a big help. If I can connect or help even ONE person, then I know that none of my time has been wasted. And even if I do not help anyone but myself, I can still feel good.
Thank you for reading the madness I call my life!