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Dismantling Temptations

Sunday, November 18, 2012

I had a fun day with DD. She took me birthday shopping. I got some new sweatshirts and some taco salad pans. Then I got some sweaters at the thrift store. Then, we did some grocery shopping. It was a fun day.

I got some new leave-in conditioner for my hair. I've been hating it lately. It's gone into major frizz mode. I am hoping to find a solution for that with this new conditioner and I trimmed it up today. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

I'm still struggling with my eating. I ate terribly this morning. I did okay all day today. Then, I did terrible this evening. Both of the times when I did terrible I was alone. I am thinking that being alone is a major contributor to my eating. Somehow, I associate companionship with food. When I'm lonely, I seek food to keep me company. This evening, when I was tempted to have something, I started a new spreadsheet. I labeled the columns: temptation, time, day, before feeling, result, after feeling. I filled in the columns and it made it clear to me that I am lonely. I decided to abstain from the temptation...mainly because of the "after feeling" column. I knew that, if I indulged in the temptation, my entry in the "after feeling" column would be "remorse" or "guilt." Since I decided to abstain, my feeling in the "after feeling" column was "okay." So, maybe going through this exercise when faced with a temptation will help me. I'm going to e-mail it to myself so I can bring it up on my phone when I'm out in case I face any temptations and want to try it.

Well, hope you all had a good weekend. I did. And I'm hopeful that I am finding the tools I need to get myself on track and stay there. Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon
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