Sunday, November 18, 2012
First are foremost I got a great woohoo this week. At the end of the week I lost 3 lbs. However instead of feeling great that I lost a lot more than I thought I would (I was shooting for 1.5 lbs), my mind goes to all the things I feel that I should have improved but didn't. I know I was able to stay within my calorie range, and I did my best to have 5 small meals instead of 3 large meals, but I did not eat all the freggies or drink all the water I should have. I certainly did not excercise more than the minimum 10 minutes per day. I should be happy with what I have accomplished so far. Why do I not feel like I have not accomplished much?
Instead, I am sitting here in trepidation of the upcoming week. How do I stay within my calorie range on a day like Thanksgiving? My birthday is celebrated that weekend and more food will abound. Do I have the willpower to deal with the people and the food choices that will be in front of me on these two days without regaining all that I have lost so far? Should it even matter. I am so confused and afraid. I will do my best to make time for exercise but even I know that 10 minutes of exercise a day will not be enough.
My focus this week was going to be working more diligently on an exercise routine that I can stick with. But now I am wondering if I should just continue the focus on my healthy food choices and worry about the exercise next week. This is so much harder than I thought it would be. I definitely don't want to go backwards but the stress of thinking about it can't be helping either *SMH*.
I think that I just have to set it in my mind that even if I go over the calories on Thanksgiving Day, that as long as I don't give up I can always go right back to making my healthy choices on Friday. Okay, I just need to calm down and not worry so much. Have a little of the items I like, fill up on the veggies and watch the portion sizes and I should be okay. One day can't make that much difference, right. If I do fall off the perverbial horse then I can just get right back on doing the things I know I should do.
I know I am going to Red Lobster for my birthday and then to the movies. So I can see what are the better choices on the menu before I go (any suggestions?) . That should help me. I know what I should do but I am not sure once I am in the actual situation that I will be able to see it through. My family members don't exactly push me to do the right things. There is a lot of peer pressure to overeat in my family situation.
But what I do know is that I can get pass this week and move forward. I hate that it is at the beginning of my journey before I have figured it all out. I CAN do this. I MUST do this. I cannot let it hold me back. Whether my weight goes up or down is incidental as long as I do not give up. I cannot let the fear hold me back from achieving my goals.
I know I may be rambling but I need to get these feelings out so that I can deal with them now before the dreadful days arrive. Feel free to provide any suggestions that have helped you. I will let you know next week how well I was able to deal with this week and how my choices affected my weight loss goals. Bye for now. I look forward to hearing from you with any suggestions that may help me during this stressful time.