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What is Wrong with Me?

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Why can't I seem to stick to anything? I did so good from June to August - I dropped about 15 pounds. And then suddenly, I just go right back to my old ways and gain it all right back. I'm so miserable, sad, depressed, and lonely and I just don't know how much more i can do. How many more times I can start over. I'm fading fast. I really could use a friend who lived close enough to come with me to the gym in the early mornings - I just am too exhausted after working 10 hours to go in the evening. I hate the holidays. They don't help either. I'm very lucky to have a family close enough to visit for the holidays but being single this long is starting to get to me. I know my only way out is to lose weight and be attractive enough for someone to want to date me. But it's so goddamn hard and i don't have any support, and I wish I was just one of those strong people who do it all and do it all themselves. I'm just not.
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    Thanks for the kind words. The holidays always derail me and not just because there is cornbread stuffing. I'm at an enpasse in my life - I'm halfway through college, work is picking up, I manage two residential properties for a friend, and overall I haven't been very happy. I've really been trying to be thankful for what I do have and I just find myself sad. I know I should be grateful for everything and deep inside I am. It's just these feelings mask all that. I Go back to the doctor Saturday. I will suck it up and let her yell at me :-)
    1409 days ago
    I wonder if you are trying to make too many big changes all at once. That is hard. IE first for me, is tracking what I eat without making any conscious changes, then make a few small substitutions, like switching from 2 100 calorie slices of bread on your sandwich to a 120 calorie hamburger bun. Switch from a full fat salad dressing to a lower fat salad dressing, etc. You can cut some calories out without minding too much. Now, if you see some progress, it just may give you some impetus to do more.

    Exercise a bit more next. For me it was mainly walking. Start wherever you are and walk what you can then walk a tad more every week. Don't try and walk 3 miles the first day if you can't do that. Don't walk for an hour on the first day and get too sore to walk again for a few days. Take it slow.

    Try and make changes that you think you can maintain. If you make huge changes, you will give them up. IE after you have lost the weight, you will still need to maintain many of those changes, as I have had to do. It can be done and I believe you can do it.

    Also, I would look around for someone to exercise with, be it at a gym or walking or whatever. It really does help a ton. If you can't find someone local, sign up for a small group online challenge like one of the 5% challenges. I find a small group can help give you the accountability you need in a virtual forum.

    Sorry, if I sound preachy. You just sounded like you needed some enouragement. It is hard, no matter what others tell you. Loosing weight is very hard, and you have to really want it, for yourself, not just because others tell you it is best for you, etc.

    1409 days ago
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