Sunday, November 18, 2012
Why can't I seem to stick to anything? I did so good from June to August - I dropped about 15 pounds. And then suddenly, I just go right back to my old ways and gain it all right back. I'm so miserable, sad, depressed, and lonely and I just don't know how much more i can do. How many more times I can start over. I'm fading fast. I really could use a friend who lived close enough to come with me to the gym in the early mornings - I just am too exhausted after working 10 hours to go in the evening. I hate the holidays. They don't help either. I'm very lucky to have a family close enough to visit for the holidays but being single this long is starting to get to me. I know my only way out is to lose weight and be attractive enough for someone to want to date me. But it's so goddamn hard and i don't have any support, and I wish I was just one of those strong people who do it all and do it all themselves. I'm just not.