Sunday, November 18, 2012
I have mixed emotions about my trip being over... I miss the excitement of being gone and doing new things for the first time, YET... I guess it would have gotten old had I stayed gone longer? Maybe not, lol! I know it was difficult to come home and what I came home to made me want to turn back around and leave! The house was simply filthy! It wasn't perfect when I left, but it wasn't nasty, ya know?
Anyway... the rest of my time with Susie was just perfect and the first wave of sadness came when I had to leave her house Tues. morning. We had such fun, we laughed and simply enjoyed our time together! We even got up early and worked out the morning I left. I made it 10 minutes on the elliptical and then 20 on the treadmill... was dripping sweat, felt good!
When I left Susie's, I went to Ann Arbor, MI and met Stacy (STACYPOP on here) and she is simply lovely! We shared deep conversation and fun time together as well. In Ann Arbor, I stayed at a hotel BY MYSELF and it was SUCH fun! I loved it!
Then, on my way back home, I stopped by Jann's again! That was Thursday and we went to the gym. her trainer had told her to bring me along and he would work me out as well and boy did he work me out! I almost pooped my pants when he picked up weights and handed them to ME!!! I remember the workout, but not what the moves were called. Suffice it to say, I was dripping sweat by the time I finished, and my legs and arms felt like jello and I thought I was gonna throw up! ( A big burp later helped that)!
I surprised Jann, I think and mostly, I surprised myself! I never thought I could do what he threw at me! Sooo, I need to get a plan in place to work out like that and incorporate more walking again too! I will probably borrow some weights from my SIL, Bonnie, OR, I will just do that workout at HER house or something...
I will try to blog later with more details of each place I visited, along with pictures.... I will say though, while I had a great deal of fun... alot of stuff seemed to be presenting itself to me with each place I went. There was a theme of "being yourself and taking care of me and midlife crises was mentioned more than once!" I do not know that I am going through a midlife crises or anything, but, I just turned 39 before going on this trip and well, i don't know. I thought the lightbulb moments were going to come on the trip, but it feels like I was just out "gathering", "tasting", etc... and now that I'm home, the REAL processing is going to take place...
I DO know that I don't feel satisfied with things to stay the way they are, not just my weight, but all kinds of things in my life! I got home on Friday and spent several hours cleaning on Saturday and still did not feel satisfied. I'm hoping that's a signal that things are going to change in that department and not just from me, but my expectations from the rest of the family seem to be changing as well.
I really did not expect this trip to be life-changing, just a once in a lifetime trip! But, it seems God has other plans! It's all good though! I felt so dead before and now I feel more alive! Unsettled, unsatisfied ~ I think is a good thing to a degree, as it points to change and I believe it will all be good change!
Catch you all later!