Sunday, November 18, 2012
I blew it again. I binged last night, very late, and feel all of the horrible effects. I was up all night sick to my stomach, I started the day hating myself, it's all wrong.
But then I realized that for the past month or so, my main objective has been to stop binging. Emphasis on negative behaviors that I want to stop instead of focusing on positive behaviors I want to enjoy and keep doing.
I was successful for months because I focused on what I wanted. I wanted to feel great. I wanted to eat healthy foods in the right amounts so that I had great energy for the day. I wanted to wake feeling clean and light so that I could be positive for all those in my life.
These are the tickets to happiness. The "towards motivators" as Renee Stephens calls them. I've been so focused on my away from motivators - lose weight, stop binging, stop gaining, that I forgot to focus on what I do want.
So today, I begin again, with my positive intent in my mind.