Sunday, November 18, 2012
I'm in the midst of day 8. I have one solid week down, from start to finish, and have achieved all goals therein. I am a creature of routine. There are predictable times during the week that pose a greater challenge. Thus far, I have been able to go out to eat 4 times with making healthy decisions each time:
Standard breakfast: 3 scrambled eggs. If turkey sausage is available- a side of it with some sugar free syrup.
Standard lunch or dinner: Here is where it gets interesting. I have discovered that if any restaurant offers grilled chicken anywhere on its menu (such as grilled chicken salads, grilled chicken breast sandwich etc.) they have the ability to respond to the following order: "What is the cheapest way to get a plain grilled chicken breast on a plate by itself?" - they will often provide this for about $4 depending on the place. I add a side of sauteed mushrooms and some honey mustard on the side, and I'm good to go.
Something that has derailed me in the past is the idea that I need variety and novelty. I actually thrive better when I have routine- so I am one of those people that can have the same thing to eat for lunch every day. I would be perfectly content having a grilled chicken breast with mushrooms and a side of honey mustard every day, and the whole thing comes to about 300-400 calories depending on the size of the chicken breast, and that's assuming you enjoy the entire oz of honey mustard.
Coming into the holidays is going to be challenge. My mother made a very innocent comment today about "sadly, I won't be making cookies this year etc. etc." to which I had an instant visceral response:
1. My mother was implying being sad, which in turn made me feel a certain level of sadness / guilt.
2. Christmas is meant to be a time of happiness.
3. Therefor, I should eat cookies at Christmas to make my mom happy.
That type of automatic thought and association has been the driving force behind many of my derailments. But again, in consideration of past behavior, I ask myself "and how's that working out for you?" - and the answer is "not so well." Thus, new behavioral patterns must be established. The price of giving in to a momentary craving is far outweighed by the benefit of investing this ongoing self-denial. I just need to see the benefits start to emerge- hopefully soon.
My first weigh-in is tomorrow. My family says that my face is looking thinner, yet my pants don't feel any looser. I know from experience that my abdominal girth always lingers longer than other areas. Whatever the number, I have to promise myself it will not derail me.