Sunday, November 18, 2012
im thrilled. although the scale did not budge this week, I have been consistent with fuel and exercise. i ran/walked over a 10 k yesterday. how about that.
when i think about the challenges difficult marriage, finding out our house is in foreclosure, owe back taxes, we have no health or dental ins, challenging health issues among other things, medical bills. spouse was here for 3 weeks after being gone for 7 months.... more shifting. out of the 3 weeks there were 3 days that i wasnt in tears and the previous 7 months no tears until i knew he was coming home. so torn. this relationship is not Karin-friendly, yet the choices are limited extremely limited. I dont want to hurt him, i dont want to hurt our kids.
then there are normal good stresses..getting ready for upcoming holiday for a large family cleaning and grocery shopping, my son going into the navy in dec, incorporating two new and wonderful boyfriends to our holiday.... these challenges are not bad, just shifts.
and yet..... I can choose to dwell on those things and get bogged down, OR I can take joy in the little victories. that for today is what i am choosing to do.