Sunday, November 18, 2012
Ok. I'm back on track. I have to be. It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep because I'm in so much stomach pain! So I think - what did I eat yesterday. More of that Enjoy Life chocolate... A lot more. But it was less than I had consumed the day before. So that's not causing the pain (and there should be nothing in there that I'm sensitive to, unless it's just that I'm not use to all the sugar). And then I think - casein? I had lactose free cheese (more yesterday than I have the previous days), so that could be it. My aunt has difficulties with casein, so it's possible. I have 3 slices of it left. I'm going to have some after I detox to see if that's really what is bothering me, but it's impossible to determine if that's truly it right now since I'm eating so poorly! I've already eliminated all forms of soy, so that's not it, but my gosh, this pain, it's horrible! But could it be anything else? Well...yes. I had alcohol yesterday for the first time in a while. Not wine, but liquor (I did say I ate poorly yesterday). It's really impossible to know the ingredients in it, so I really have no idea if that's contributing or not.
So what am I going to do? Get rid of the Enjoy Life chocolate. That shouldn't be bad. I only have a handful or two left of the chocolate chips. They're going in the trash. But I have a whole other unopened bag. I'm just going to give them to my friend (who is also getting my supply of Godvia hot chocolate mix that contains soy lecithin, tea bags, which also contain soy lecithin, carob chips, again, they have soy lecithin, some pudding mixes, yup - that, too, and my Godiva white chocolate liquore, which just screams "I have dairy!").
This pain, it's almost unbearable. It hurts. I can't sleep because of it and all I want to do is lie in the fetal position (which I will be doing as soon as I finish this). It's not worth it. This is totally not worth whatever I ate yesterday that's causing this.
The plan: NO chocolate. None. Zip. Zilch. It's gone. I need to detox and get all this excess sugar out of me (it's really causing my face to break out in acne as well!).
That's it... That's all I can do... I think. I have a lot of veggie lasagna left. I can have that for dinner tomorrow and see what happens the next day to my stomach. If it bothers me, then I know it's a casein problem. This means no rice vegan cheese. That's all since I've cut out dairy all other forms of dairy already.
But I'm going to go lie down now and hope I can fall asleep. It doesn't look like I'm going to be running tomorrow morning. When my stomach hates me, it doesn't like to work out. It doesn't want to move around so much and be thrown up and down. Running will not happen. I'll attempt the elliptical, but the bike is always the best option. But I did the bike today and I really need to burn these excess calories. I'll see how my stomach is in a few hours. Going to the bathroom always helps... I just have to be able to get everything toxic out of me! Hopefully that'll happen soon :(