Birthday Cake.. aka STRUGGLE
Saturday, November 17, 2012
So. Its my mom's 50th birthday this weekend and she's having a party tomorrow, and she asked me to make the cake for the party. I love baking, and I've always loved working in the kitchen and being creative with recipes and food, so that's why she asked me. Also because I'm a poor college student and she knows I couldn't afford to get her a present. She's great, I love my mom. :)
Anyways, I'm in charge of making this cake. So I decide to make a french vanilla cake with raspberry filling, vanilla frosting and fresh raspberries to decorate the top. I love the color combination and its a really beautiful cake. But because I've done such an immaculate job making this dessert, I now would like to enjoy a significant chunk of the cake. PORTION CONTROL PORTION CONTROL PORTION CONTROL. I keep telling myself that in my mind.
I always make excuses for myself. Like "oh, hey, its my mom's 50th birthday! This is a one time thing!!!! I deserve a big piece of cake." OR "Wow! I did really well in my performance today at school, I deserve to spoil myself!"
I know that rewarding ourselves for things is good, because it helps boost our self-esteem and it helps us keep pursuing towards our small goals, but how do I reward myself for doing good things without going out of control with food? I can't reward myself by going out and buying a new pair of shoes, either, because I'm a poor college student on a ridiculously strict budget. So I always go back to food. Does anyone have any advice for how to manage portion control of delicious cake and/or how to reward ourselves for the little things without going to food and without spending money?!?
Yes, I know I blogged twice in 1 day. I have a lot to say. My inner monologue is always going. I think I could blog every hour and always come up with new material. But for your sake, I won't. It's mostly just a bunch of nonsense that goes on in my mind. :)