Saturday, November 17, 2012
Wow. So much has changed in my world. So much. How do I even begin? I guess with the basics.
My son is now 4 years old and he is absolutely the light of my life. I quit my job in petroleum accounting after being back to work for a year (just after his second birthday) and now I run a dayhome for preschoolers so that I can be at home with him.
I'm very very happily married to someone who lifts me up and loves me for who I am and supports me no matter what I do.
I'm a burlesque performer on occasion.
I'm looking at going back to school next year.
I take tap dancing classes.
But I am still. Fat.
After Liam was born I lost all of my baby weight within a week. I gained not even one pound of fat during the pregnancy - it was all water and baby weight. But when he turned about 4 months old he stopped sleeping through the night and I was also dealing with a nasty bout of post partum anxiety. My weight shot back up to 247 pounds. It stayed there for a LONG TIME. It's taken me almost a year to get down to 231.
All of my healthy habits that I had built are shot. They are gone. I'm still working out. I still eat mostly clean, but I'm currently battling a daily sweet tooth, total lack of water, not sleeping well at all, overeating when ever I can justify it (and believe me I can justify ANYTHING)...it needs to stop. So here I am, after 4 years, just trying to get my mojo back.
I could really use some support, some friendship, and maybe even a kick in the butt...