Saturday, November 17, 2012
I guess you could say I've been avoiding my Spark page latly. There hasn't been much to update-still not feeling well-I've started to chalk it up to being all in my head-the Doc around here are pretty clueless and for the most part it seems that if I lost more weight I wouldn't feel so sick..thats what they keep saying but I didn't feel this yucky when I weight 80 pounds more.
So I don't know.
Turkey Day is Thursday and I'm not really prepaired for it. I don't like dealing with my family and being around them tends to be a source of anxiety. (Which in turn can cause me to eat more).
After Thanksgiving I am going to renew my search for a new apartment. The one I've been in for the past five years is starting to have some pretty big flaws that are affecting my health. I have athsma from my mom smoking all the time when I was a kid and out of 6 units in this building I am the only one that doesn't. Now that wouldn't be much of an issue except its a really old house and the second hand smoke from the 2 apartments below mine, the two that are to the side and the old man at the bottom of the stairs that insists on smoking with the door open (even though he's been told repeatedly not to) all seems to filter into my place. My bedroom is the worst-there is a much older couple that smokes heavily and I haven't been able to sleep in my bedroom since I moved into this place because of it. My bed is currently in my room-i just dont' have the energy or space really to move it to the living room again. (I really shouldn't have to but what can I do. )
Food wise I guess I'm doing alright. It's hard to with not a lot of time and add in my not feeling well-it makes anything food related a nightmare. I've only gained a few pounds-5 at the most which considering how run down I've been that's a miracle. I am trying to keep up with everything it's just so difficult sometimes.
On that note. I wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving and I hope you all get to spend it with those you love.