Saturday, November 17, 2012
Well, I haven't weighed myself in the past few days but I do feel like I'm still a few pounds up. It didn't help that I had a bit more more cheddar-flavored popcorn yesterday (I LOVE that stuff) and the family ordered a chicken-bacon-ranch pizza last night from the new pizza place in town.
Yes, it WAS delicious and no, I really shouldn't have.
I know from past diets (I don't consider this a 'diet', but more of a lifestyle change) that I can be doing great but every so often (maybe every couple of weeks?) I get totally famished and feel empty and just have to pig out -- at least a little. I used to think it was because I wasn't eating enough fat but that's not the case. I think it's just that I'm really active and I just need a few more calories, plain and simple.
Anyway, I don't feel that I've messed everything up like I have in the past. A few days off the wagon like this would have made me give up. But not this time. I really don't even feel like giving up! I feel more like: "Well, I've learned a little something from this and even though I'm not happy with myself I'm NOT going to beat myself up. Let's just move on, shall we?"
And BEST of all, I fought the urges that are somehow still with me (after many years of struggling with them I guess they will always be with me) to deal with overeating in an unhealthy manner. (Don't really want to 'go there' so let's just leave it at that.)
Anyway, I feel at peace with myself. I was really tired today after starting work at 7am and not getting nearly enough sleep, so I took a cat-nap this afternoon (literally -- my cats joined me) and then went on a 40 minute walk.
P.S. (Updated in response to TANGERYN's question): My cats are inside cats (and they help with inside workouts -- like sitting right under me when I'm in the middle to a pushup! UGH!) but I DO also have some outdoor cats that I adopted -- or they adopted me (and I had them all FIXED!) and those 4 DO walk with me! If I can sneak out without them seeing me I can walk where I want...but if they see me they WILL walk with me, so I walk around and around the block. I feel like the Pied Piper when this happens -- me walking with 4 cats. Cars have actually stopped to watch and smile at us...