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Open Your Eyes and See the Sunshine

Saturday, November 17, 2012

If the world shall disappoint you, it will be your own fault. " Mark Hopkins

My life was one heartbreak after another. At 13 our house burnt to the ground at 15 my alcoholic father walked out on us which left us in poverty with not much food and broken hearts. My twenties included being drugged raped by my boyfriends brother. And then after spending seven years with my fiancée, right before Christmas and 6 months from our wedding day he told me he didn't love me but wanted to be with a 52 year old overweight man instead.

In my thirties met my husband on what was supposed to be my wedding day. He broke my heart too, and liked to party a little to much. Then came three miscarriages,and finally a son. Then my daughter who needed a pacemaker at 4 . Then came numerous doctor bills, we lost our house and had to move in with my mother-in law. I hated my life I was forever negative . I could not see any good in it all.

Then one day I got a message and it said may the rest of your life be filled with joy. And Mrs negative had a hard time finding it,but I slowly did. And then it grew and the joy grew so much that it burst my cold negative heart and replaced it with a new positive one. I love my life every bit of it now even the heart aches.
I even see the past differently .I shouldn't have grieved for my father and wanted him back because my life was safer and calmer without him. My twenties were not the greatest but being raped and having a break up wasn't the end of the world that I thought it was then. My husband partied so much because he had a very negative wife incapable of giving him the love he needed. I had two beautiful kids and really what difference did it make what house we lived in if we were all together but stupid negative me couldn't see this.
I am so happy that I opened my eyes and now see the sunshine. Life is good if you look at the positive side. Being positive doesn't change a thing but it does make life a ton sweeter. Always remember if the world shall disappoint you then it is your fault.
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KELPIE57 11/19/2012 3:26AM

    As always, an inspiration, and much food for thought.

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SIRENSONGS 11/18/2012 9:40AM

    Oh, I am so sorry that you had to go through so many traumas in your life! But that makes your positive attitude now that much more inspiring and admirable! I am so happy that you were able to turn your life around and see the positive aspects of life. I'm still struggling with that, every day. I've lived my whole life thinking negative thoughts, but I am slowly making the changes that I need to in order to have a healthier mindset. You are an inspiration, darling!

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WENDYSPARKS 11/18/2012 8:37AM

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SHEILA1505 11/18/2012 3:55AM

    Great attitude-turnaround!
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BLITZEN40 11/17/2012 9:26PM

    You were right to grieve your father as a child. Children love their parents even if their parents are unfit for the job. It's psychologically healthy for you to have loved and missed your dad when he left. I am sorry you had to experience that and the other trials as well but in the end, look how good you came out! You're awesome! Love your positive outlook on life. emoticon

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DARLY55 11/17/2012 8:11PM

    You are absolutely right on target! Bad things happen to all of us at some point, some more than others, but it is how we deal with those things that make the difference.
I recently heard a quote that was something like this -
Those who expect nothing are never disappointed and those who expect everything are never surprised. Makes you think for a minute, it is a very true statement.
You are the best AG! emoticon You are one of my Spark Friends that I would like to actually meet!

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BARBANNA 11/17/2012 4:41PM

    Wow, that a positive attitude. If you ask other people they will all have sad stories to share. Some worse than others but the perception of those things differs. Glad you are happy.

Thanks for sharing! Have a great Thanksgiving!

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SLIMMERJESSE 11/17/2012 4:17PM

    Very nice blog - again.

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