Saturday, November 17, 2012
In the face of extreme crisis in my world, the past two days have proven to me that the best thing one can do in a crisis is take extra good care of yourself!
I'm being tested right now in ways I never imagined. Big things have come to my home that I really never dreamed of.
At first, my instincts were to numb myself with food. I spent a month plus in the abyss of binging and self-loathing. It's what I've always done and it came to me quite easily. But really, it wasn't easy at all. All it did was compound the problems in my life because in addition to the Hell I found myself in, I was creating another realm of Hell: self loathing, lack of sleep, poor digestion, etc.
Luckily, I continued to tap into the Spark community - I tracked, blogged, got and received messages, goodies, mail, and most of all, incredible support and advice. I kept starting over, knowing in my subconscious that eventually I'd pull ahead.
Now I'm two days back on track. This is the longest I've gone in over a month, so for me it's a great sign. What's more, I'm remembering all the reasons why self care is actually the easy way! It feels great, I have more energy, my digestion works well, and I wake up feeling clean, light, and ready to face the day with strength and confidence.
The only way my family and I are going to make it through this is if I'm feeling strong and my self esteem is high. And for me, that's all tied to how much I'm taking care of myself.