Friday, November 16, 2012
To start off I am really disappointed in myself. I know what I am capable of and this is not it.
This week started off badly, and I just kept on adding on and on until it was too late.
My cardio this week was actually awesome. I think I worked harder than any other week so far. I had more intense sessions, and I felt more in shape. I did all this work so I should feel awesome and have seen the scale go down right? WRONG.
My weekend wasn't horrible, but it wasn't good either. I indulged a bit, and I let that indulgence slip into my week. I had cookies that I really didn't need, I ate not very healthy food, and by Tuesday I was really feeling bloated...so I got on the scale and I had gained 2 lbs....Honestly I was in horror. I worked so hard to get down to 220 and just like that it was gone. So Wednesday and Thursday I was much more careful about what I ate, but it wasn't enough. I was good, but I know I can be better.
This morning I didn't want to get out of bed and weigh myself. I knew there would be a gain or no change. I got up anyways and got on the scale and there it was again 220 lbs...maybe even 220.5 but it's too hard to tell since I don't have a digital scale. Yes I did take off the gain from earlier in the week, but I want to be losing consistently. I realize there will be weeks when there is no change, but there has been little change over the last 6-8 weeks.
I really thought about it today, and I realized some things. I thought what have I done differently the last few weeks than I did the first weeks of my journey...and the answer in food. Although I pretty much always hit my calorie range, I am not eating the right kinds of food at all. I have also realized that for me to lose weight I need to focus more on what I eat rather than exercise.
I will change this, and I will get back on track this week. I will not let myself down. I can do this. I will be keeping my exercise up but I will be focusing a lot more on food. I've also decided to do a 4 day anti bloat from the flat belly diet starting on Monday (I don't have all the groceries I need to start tomorrow), so hopefully that will help my bloating. For anyone interested in the anti bloat comment and let me know, and I can post the details in a blog over the weekend.