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Hard Time

Friday, November 16, 2012

To start off I am really disappointed in myself. I know what I am capable of and this is not it.

This week started off badly, and I just kept on adding on and on until it was too late.

My cardio this week was actually awesome. I think I worked harder than any other week so far. I had more intense sessions, and I felt more in shape. I did all this work so I should feel awesome and have seen the scale go down right? WRONG.

My weekend wasn't horrible, but it wasn't good either. I indulged a bit, and I let that indulgence slip into my week. I had cookies that I really didn't need, I ate not very healthy food, and by Tuesday I was really feeling bloated...so I got on the scale and I had gained 2 lbs....Honestly I was in horror. I worked so hard to get down to 220 and just like that it was gone. So Wednesday and Thursday I was much more careful about what I ate, but it wasn't enough. I was good, but I know I can be better.

This morning I didn't want to get out of bed and weigh myself. I knew there would be a gain or no change. I got up anyways and got on the scale and there it was again 220 lbs...maybe even 220.5 but it's too hard to tell since I don't have a digital scale. Yes I did take off the gain from earlier in the week, but I want to be losing consistently. I realize there will be weeks when there is no change, but there has been little change over the last 6-8 weeks.

I really thought about it today, and I realized some things. I thought what have I done differently the last few weeks than I did the first weeks of my journey...and the answer in food. Although I pretty much always hit my calorie range, I am not eating the right kinds of food at all. I have also realized that for me to lose weight I need to focus more on what I eat rather than exercise.

I will change this, and I will get back on track this week. I will not let myself down. I can do this. I will be keeping my exercise up but I will be focusing a lot more on food. I've also decided to do a 4 day anti bloat from the flat belly diet starting on Monday (I don't have all the groceries I need to start tomorrow), so hopefully that will help my bloating. For anyone interested in the anti bloat comment and let me know, and I can post the details in a blog over the weekend.

Reboot time.

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    I'm 100% with you as well! I don't know what it is about this past week, but it seems like all of my Spark Friends have been having a difficult week!! But I, along with a few others, are starting off fresh RIGHT now. Do you care to join me??
    1950 days ago
  • JMANDA86
    I'm right there with you. I dropped 25 pounds in the first two months and have been wavering between 179-184 for the past month and a half. (At least I know how to maintain?) I have been hitting the gym hard and I know I have gained some muscle, but my eating is awful overall. Some days are ok and others are just awful. Part of my problem right now is having the money to buy the healthy food which gets more expensive in the winter. And in the winter it's so easy to sit on the couch with comfort food and hot chocolate (lately with Bailey's, but at least my hot chocolate is sugar free). I'm also going into the holidays with a 'Don't gain, maintain' attitude which isn't good for my overall goal, but that is ok for now. I'm hitting the gym hard and when the holidays are over (and I'm hoping to teach a few more classes second semester so I make a little more) I can really focus on my food again. For now, moderation of the junk!
    1951 days ago
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