Friday, November 16, 2012
I had my first doctor's appointment in eleven years today, and as suspected I hit my breaking point and broke down in tears in front of my doctor (whom I just met).
Surprisingly I feel no shame in this because what 'broke' me was openly discussing my high anxiety. (I have had anxiety issues since my father was killed by a drunk driver over 25 years ago.) Thankfully my doctor was amazing and is going to work with me on my anxiety as well as help me to lose weight. I was completely honest with her about my eating habits and lack of activity. She voiced, as SparkPeople does, that unless a person gets to the root of the problem you will only gain the weight back.
For the first time I feel that I am moving in the right direction with the proper professionals, support system and frame of mind. I have a new outlook on life and on myself and am looking forward to my future. I feel that I am strong enough to make this hard journey now that I know I have the proper people to make the journey with.