Efforts take Effort for reasons
Friday, November 16, 2012
I've been doing really well with planning my meals. Last week, I ate a lot of veggies and fruits, but this week I've been feeling the need for carbs. I've had Ramen like 3 days in a row! Yes, it's recorded into my tracker, and I've only gone over my calories about 3 days total in the last 12 days. Instead of keeping track of the days that I stay within range, and have a 'perfect' day, I started tracking what days I was 100% honest with my tracker (today is day 13). I'm finding it's much easier, and I'm actually motivated to eat less because when I see the daily count going up, I know that adding it will only make it go higher, and I don't like to see it on my tracker. Sure, I could just eat it and not track it (like I had been doing a LOT before 12 days ago) but it finally sank: I'm only hurting myself by A) not being 100% honest and B)by not getting on it NOW. I know I'll thank myself in the Spring when I reach my "100 pounds lost" goal. I feel great. I don't actually feel like "the fat girl" anymore.
I went to the gym this morning and I decided to take advantage of one of the empty dance rooms to do some mat exercises. I took my stance to do some squats with a medicine ball and I noticed something: There was light shining through my legs where it normally didn't. I don't normally look at my full body in a mirror, but this particular dance room had 2 walls worth of mirrors. I just happened to notice I guess. I've never been one of those girls who were like "I just don't want my thighs to touch because if they do, I'm fat", but the fact that they are noticeably thinner makes me really happy.
Another small victory for me: I bought a candy bar four days ago. Yesterday I ate half of it. I still have half of it left. I can't remember a time I've EVER done that. I did eat other sweets, but in my old days, I would have eaten all of the sweets and the candy bar too. I must've seen candy bars as a 'free' food or something...Either way, I see this as potential to really change my habits regarding junk foods or candy. I definitely don't want to give them up, but I also don't want to eat them as much as I used to.
I'm finally getting somewhere again and I'm so happy. In almost 3 months, I've lost 17 pounds. I know it'll slow down at some point, but I'm definitely enjoying it.