Friday, November 16, 2012
I have been thinking about losing and does it really make you happier. I was happy when I was a little bit smaller. Could wear much more and felt good in clothes. But I don't think I was happier. Was more thinking that I would look better in pictures and people won't think I am fat. ! If I had started this journey many years earlier like when I was in my 30's I would be much better off. It's so much harder when your older. I am 61 going on 62. And don't have as much engery. I do walk and find things to do to keep me busy but it's hard when I have fallen so much and hamstrings are messed up so I am hurting. I always look on positive side. It could always be worse. Would I be happier really skinny? Don't think so. I hust want to look good in clothes and not see the bulges and all. Which stomach will never be flat. Never be what I want so I have to accept what I can't have and look at what I do have. ! And how blessed I am. I can do a lot compared to my gf who has many more health issues than I have. So I will keep going. Fighting my sugar addiction and strive to look my best no matter what weight I am at. ! And keep working out. Doing weights to keep me strong. So the older I get I can keep doing what I am doing. I want to be here for my husband and kids and grand kids. And keep up with them. Which I am !!
So never give up. Cause i don't and I will be healthy and and keep going ! And still on this journey to learn every day how to be better. !