I forgot to post a November grateful yesterday.
I try to find positive things in my life everyday and I had a hard time to find something new to be grateful about, but then I realised that I can be grateful for the same things everyday. Why not??
Today, I am grateful to be alive.

I relooked my goals yesterday and I am committing to take action to achieve them.
I want to be at goal weight for my birthday next July,but if I don't take action now, it aint' gona happen.
And if it don't happen, I will be sorely disappointed in myself and mad and down and depressed, and ,well, you get the picture..
I know in my head what I need to do, but I did not have a concrete plan.
I don't like to write my food in the computer so I got myself a book that I can carry in my purse so I can track anytime,anywhere.
I have lost 45lbs without tracking in the last year,but I am really struggling with about 5lbs(comes off,goes back on) right now.
So my plan is to commit to my food plan and really make the effort-whatever it takes- to make it to my goal weight.
I was going to wait after Christmas,but then I realised that now I struggle with 5 lbs,but if I wait after Christmas, it could be 20lbs,because "diet mentality"is-eat it now because after Christmas you'll be on a diet and you won't be able to have this EVER AGAIN!!!!
No more of this foolishness!
I'm going to make it to my goal weight and then, I can struggle with 5 lbs,but at least i'll be at goal and proud of myself.
Here's what I learned on sparkpeople this year.
1-My goal is reachable.
2-All kind of people struggle with food everyday-I am not alone.
3-People that make it to goal weight still struggle with food issues-but they all say it's worth it.
4-I need to exercise consistently.
5-People that are successful keep track of what they eat EVERY DAY. Not just when they feel like it,or when they are happy.
6-I have to be realistic about how my lifestyle affects my weight loss or weight gain.
7-Sometimes I have to make painful choices,but in the end, i'll be glad I made them.
8-I am worth the effort.

I am a binge eater,an emotional eater,a junk food lover,a sit in front of tv=eat mindlessly eater,a food is there might as well eat it eater, a enormous portion distortion eater and i'm sure much more.

Now, I need to change this and become a normal eater, an eater that deals with her feelings-good or bad- instead of stuffing them down or numbing them, a health food lover, a sit in front of tv less-go exercise or do something productive but if you have to sit,occupy your hand with something other than food eater, if food is there and it's not to eat, put it away or throw it away or walk away and,most importantly, a portion conscious eater.

I can do it. I know I can.
But I keep forgetting.