Friday, November 16, 2012
Yesterday was a bleh day for a number of reasons. Grey gloomy weather, I didn't go on my morning walk for no good reason, I had gained back 3 pounds, and was having an tantrum. My inner two year old was in charge and she was just kicking and screaming and refusing to behave, much like the girl with the curl on her forehead, who when she was bad, was very, very bad. I don't wanna walk! I don't wanna eat right! I want pizza!
I managed to rein the bad girl in and went to work and had a healthy lunch but she appeared again when I ate about 20 chocolate kisses. When I got home I had a small piece of steak, (which I weighed!)a baked yam and Brussels sprouts which were all very yummy but once again the little girl came out and wanted sweets so I made her a cup of coco. It was 130 calories so I felt okay about that and then off to bed.
Today was much better! The sky was blue! I took a walk! I ate good! And I lost a pound! I did find more chocolate kisses at work but I only had about 12 before I got sick of them. I had a stir-fry of dinner with only 3 oz of meat so I allowed myself another cup of coco. Some nights a piece of fruit will just not cut the mustard!
I think we must all have inner bad girls and boys, otherwise we wouldn't be in the shape we are in. My inner girl has used food for so long as a way to feel better and is having a hard time coping with this new stronger adult in her life. My bad girl is shouting "but nobody loves me so give me something to eat!" And I, as the adult, must find better ways of providing that love.