Thursday, November 15, 2012
I am working on completing the pre requisites to get into nursing school and am down to my last 4 classes. I had registered for 2 of those classes a few weeks ago and did some major schedule tweaking with my work schedule in order to have THE BEST professor on campus for one of the classes. I heard mention the other day that they had opened up some other lab sections and so I logged on today to see if there was anything that worked better for my schedule. Not only are all the lab sections closed BUT they have switched the teacher for my class!!!!! I now have THE ONE teacher on campus that I really don't want. So, my question is do I keep a schedule that is less than ideal and stay with a teacher I don't want OR do I drop the class for this upcoming semester and potentially wait until next fall to do the class? I don't have to take the lab with the lecture but I do have to complete the lecture first. I think I'm going to talk to my professor (I have her right now) and see if this is some weird joke. the irony is that if I had kept the lab I originally registered for that I would have had the professor I wanted bc they switched that teacher to mine. ugh. I'm just so frustrated bc I signed up for this particular lab section bc of the professor. It would also decrease the stress to take the lecture separately from the lab.
Today has been a pretty craptastic day. I still have my streak of abstinence from purging going though I know I've eaten far too little today. My anxiety has been super high and I've felt like I have a bowling ball in my stomach most of the day.
Feeling kind of abandoned by my recovery coach/sponsor. Part of me knows that she can't be there for me 24/7 bc she is human AND a really busy human at that but at the same time I just really need some encouragement right now. I really want to give up and say to hell with this whole recovery nonsense. trying to stay strong and put my feelings into words to try and take the power away from them.
just gotta figure this class nonsense out. I also need to get cracking on taking the TEAS exam (part of the requirement for application to nursing school) to get the ball moving even more.