Thursday, November 15, 2012
I have been on this journey for a long time. Most times I am losing the same weight over and over again. 2 years ago when I decided to lose weight I did something that I have never done before- I kept it to myself. Why you might ask when everything preaches to "get a network of support" and "do it with a friend".
I realized that "for me" with certain things I work best ALONE. In the past when I told others it then became a cruel game of "watch Nicole mess up, what is she putting in her mouth now" and I found that when I told others of what I was doing it just seemed (to me) that people around me did everything in their power to undermine my efforts. When I say that I am trying to eat better and lose weight someone always brings home donuts or cake, or cook something they know I have a weakness for and when I give in to it, then I am stared at and ridiculed. Of course this could all be in my mind but I really don't think I'm crazy.
The last time I took this approach it worked wonderfully and by the time people realized that I was slimmer and looked different, I was 30lbs lighter and well on my way.
So this time I am doing it again. I have not told anyone what I am doing and mysteriously there is no cake or lavish meals being cooked and all is well. I realized that I don't need anyone's seal of approval or brotherhood mentality to do this. I don't think anyone in my immediate circle really understands. And that's ok. I am in good company here on SP and here, since we are all going through the same thing and facing the same obstacles day to day, I realized that I have all the support I need to get through this and succeed.
I'm just really happy to be back!