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Taking a big step to make myself better.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

This whole semester I wanted everything to be great. I was a senior, I was 21, I was getting so close to the end.

But instead I found myself flailing, working 40 hours a week, taking 18 credits, and overall feeling like I was drowning.

Some days were good, other days I wanted to lay in bed and quit. Then some things happened that many people know about, including the death of one of my friends and I just kind of lost it.

I tried so hard to keep my weight loss going but it was like I could either only focus on school or only focus on weight loss. There was no in-between. There was no room in my brain to spare a thought for anything new.

I would know exactly what I needed to do to feel better, but I just wouldn't want to do it I had no motivation at all (in school and weight loss).
So yesterday in the midst of a crippling stress attack, I made the call.

"Hello, how do you set up a counseling appointment?"
"Oh! You just call this number!"
"Great...ok.... um I need to do that"
"Ok are you in crisis currently?"
That was a tough one...but no there was no immediate need for someone to see me.
"No...just stressed."
"Ok how does Tuesday sound?"
"Uhh...good?...yes....I'll be there"

So that's it. One phone call and someone is going to help me.
One phone call.
A free phone call, a free service, and I have just let it slip by as I was drowning.
I can't sit here and get mad at myself that I havent used it before when I clearly needed it, I needed to make the phone call myself when I was ready.

So now hopefully I can get some help to let me balance everything and get back to real weight loss. :)
Thanks for the people who suggested I do this before, I was just a little slow to see myself that this is what I needed.
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

REEBADABEEBOOS 11/20/2012 7:54PM

    You have to be ready to lose weight and you also had to be ready to make the call - you're so right. I'm glad you're asking for help. I'm so so sorry to hear that you lost a friend. I had no idea. My heart goes out to you. Hang in there.


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READY4CHANGE81 11/20/2012 3:47PM

    I am glad that you were able to reach out and get some help. :) I am so stubborn when it comes to that!!! emoticon

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CLPURNELL 11/16/2012 4:30PM


Proud of you. We all need help sometimes.

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KSWEEMS1 11/16/2012 2:01PM

    Taking care of you, ALL OF YOU is a very loving thing to do.... Hope you are able to de-stress and find peace.
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KRISTEN_SAYS 11/16/2012 12:20PM

    I hope the counseling session helps. Stay strong!

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IAMZBEE 11/16/2012 12:16PM


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EMMYLOU010409 11/16/2012 12:15PM

    Mental health is just as important as physical. I'm so glad you decided to reach out. A big step, a scary step, but a good step. Big hugs!

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CHANGINGSAM 11/16/2012 8:20AM

    I'm very proud of you for choosing to seek help when you felt like you needed it. That's a big step. Good luck, and I hope your first session goes well!

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ADVENTURESEEKER 11/15/2012 10:36PM

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GLMOM2 11/15/2012 9:14PM


Good for you on getting some help & looking out for yourself. With so much going on in life, we often forget to take care of ourselves while taking care of others or life's daily chaos!

You'll be glad you took that first step. emoticon

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CARYNV07 11/15/2012 8:21PM

    I made the same phone call about 3.5 years ago and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. But it was one of the best things I've ever done for myself. Counseling was and is hard, but I'm so much a better person because of it. Good luck! I'm sure you'll be able to find your balance and come through this so much better!

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CHODGES83 11/15/2012 7:20PM

    Take care of yourself. I'll be thinking of ya.

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MSROZZIE 11/15/2012 5:58PM

    Good luck with your counselling session. Give yourself time to grieve the loss of your friend, but also take care of yourself too. Stay focused on your goals. Remember, YOU are worth the effort! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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