This whole semester I wanted everything to be great. I was a senior, I was 21, I was getting so close to the end.
But instead I found myself flailing, working 40 hours a week, taking 18 credits, and overall feeling like I was drowning.
Some days were good, other days I wanted to lay in bed and quit. Then some things happened that many people know about, including the death of one of my friends and I just kind of lost it.
I tried so hard to keep my weight loss going but it was like I could either only focus on school or only focus on weight loss. There was no in-between. There was no room in my brain to spare a thought for anything new.
I would know exactly what I needed to do to feel better, but I just wouldn't want to do it I had no motivation at all (in school and weight loss).
So yesterday in the midst of a crippling stress attack, I made the call.
"Hello, how do you set up a counseling appointment?"
"Oh! You just call this number!"
"Great...ok.... um I need to do that"
"Ok are you in crisis currently?"
That was a tough one...but no there was no immediate need for someone to see me.
"Ok how does Tuesday sound?"
"Uhh...good?...yes....I'll be there"
So that's it. One phone call and someone is going to help me.
One phone call.
A free phone call, a free service, and I have just let it slip by as I was drowning.
I can't sit here and get mad at myself that I havent used it before when I clearly needed it, I needed to make the phone call myself when I was ready.
So now hopefully I can get some help to let me balance everything and get back to real weight loss. :)
Thanks for the people who suggested I do this before, I was just a little slow to see myself that this is what I needed.