Thursday, November 15, 2012
I'm going to write about a case study here because it seems relevant to some Sparkers. I'm not taking any sides or making any suggestions - just writing the facts and drawing a conclusion.
Subject gets up in the morning after over a week of poor sleep (less than 5 hours per night).
Subject thinks about self harm (cutting, self-striking, and the wearing of a cilice - a metal band, designed to inflict pain on it's wearer). The patient avoids all these behaviors in an attempt to find a healthier way to deal with emotional pain.
The subject skips breakfast, not having much of an appetite, although the subject does have a history of over eating - never under eating.
Around 1 pm the subject eats an extra large Hersey bar and washes it down with 4 shots of vodka. This happened after months of a healthful, organic diet.
It was my conclusion that food may, for some people, become an instrument of torment - in some ways more brutal than a knife or a cilice. I do not condone self harm of any type, but when I saw this I did think to myself that abusing oneself with food actually seemed more devious and brutal than something that is more socially unacceptable.
Of course, the ideal is to not do harm through any method, but I found it fascinating that I think that punishing ones self with food is more dangerous, yet more acceptable.