Gut Feelings by Carnie Wilson
Thursday, November 15, 2012
I get inspired by reading books by and about people dealing with obesity and weightloss. Most of us know who Carnie Wilson is: 1/3 of Wilson Phillips who made big hits in the 1990s! I really loved their music and have the 1st CD. She was the "fat" one in the group and the music industry people constantly tried to cloak her size in videos.
This book is pretty old and likely out of print--I picked it up at a book sale at my local library. Carnie tells of her lifetime of dealing with food addiction and being the fat girl. Like most of us, food was a big part of family life, celebrating and feeling good. Carnie had a voracious appetite all her life. She went to "fat" camp every summer for many years of her childhood where the greatest fun was finding ways to cheat on her diet with all the others cheating too. She went on all kinds of diets but lost weight but was never able to keep it off. By the age of 30, she was within a few pounds of 300. At this point she had met Rosanne Barr who had had bariatric surgery and gently encouraged Carnie to consider it. Carnie had been a voice for fat acceptance, but deep down, she really wanted to lose weight. At this time she decided to undergo the surgery and to broadcast it on the internet for the world.
She was able to lose about 150 pounds and control her eating for the first time in her life. The book ends and she's around 150 pounds and married and thinking about becoming a mother. She also is thinking about plastic surgery to remove excess skin and lift her breasts. The book has about 30 color pictures detailing her life from childhood to the point where she was at her slimmest and looking really fit and happy.
The book has a friendly "girlfriend" voice. Carnie Wilson pulls no punches regarding her marijuana dependency or her potty mouth. She doesn't blame anyone for her weight issues, but believes she used food to cope with feelings of sadness and abandonment due to her distant relationship with her famous father, Brian Wilson. She talks about how uncomfortable she felt when she was slim at last as she was so used to being in her obese body.
Many years ago, I read her 2nd book, I'm Still Hungry, which picks up where Gut Feelings leaves off. Carnie didn't stay at 150 pounds. She did stay married and had 2 children. I have caught her on reality programs as well as hosting The Newlywed Game. She has gained quite a bit of her weight back although i don't think she's back to 300 pounds. One thing she does that I think is a bad choice is making a business of baking. I think a girl like her who struggles with eating and food addiction should not be baking or have baking supplies (butter, sugar, flour) around the house. But Carnie has a very winning personality. I hope she'll keep popping up on television and letting her fans know how she's doing.
Since my mom had such adverse experiences following necessary surgery, I am very reluctant to have any kind of surgery that isn't absolutely necessary. Many people have selected bariatric surgery to help them finally lose weight and get a hold on food addiction. I have a few relatives who had it. They both did lose weight. One, who is my age, is clearly regaining her pounds. The other, who is in her 70s, is very disabled and in decline that began after she had the surgery. Despite my weight, surgery is not for me.