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NO SANTA


Thursday, November 15, 2012

sometimes pain is growth.Im having a meltdown sort of day.Im sure half of it is lack of sleep and feeling ill for a few months.There just comes a day when you have to face reality and deal with the fact that things are not the way you wished them to be and there is zero hope they will ever be so!!!...my life will never be or contain who or what i want it to...it just is what it is,i can also have justifyed resentments but it wont make life better or change the facts or undo the facts or make the future how i wanted it to be...it was all a dream n a fantasy in my head,reality has reared it's ugly head and shown threw !!! ,no matter how positve i have tryed to be...it is and never will be the way i wanted or wished it would be ,conserning my health,relationships with friends n family,and my living situations in my life,nor will i redide where i want to reside in peace and harmony.I wont believe the lies and fantasy of it anymore...I will only see the stark reality from now on.
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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/16/2012 9:54AM

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BALLOUZOO 11/15/2012 9:36PM

    buy some rose colored glasses and choose to be happy!!

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BABY_GIRL69 11/15/2012 9:02PM

    Be encouraged.....life take grab you by the tail and spank you.... I know that because I just went through..I cried, I laughed & I reminisced but I pray constantly asking the Lord to take it away from me... You should try to get out & just go to the corner & walk back. Just get started....

God bless,

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CHRIS3874 11/15/2012 9:01PM

    Things can and will change for the better if you allow Him to do it. Life is on God's terms NOT ours as hard as that might be at times. Try to hang on to whatever you DO have that makes you happy.

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STHAX10 11/15/2012 8:51PM

    First of all... emoticon

Next thing, reality sucks... We cannot change everything nor can we change anyone, other than ourselves. We can though change the environment that we are in and our attitude toward our environment.

I stayed in an unhappy marriage for so many years. I would cry on my way home from work, because I would rather be at work than home, since it was so stressful. It took me about 2 years after I started working, to become confident enough to leave that environment. I chose to be happy, even though my ex chose to try to make my life miserable even after I left him.

Now, 10 years later, I am much happier than I have ever been. But I had to take that step for myself, that I was worth more than what I was getting out of life. HE (the ex) is still miserable and has turned my son against me. But, he (my son) is an adult and I will not let them make me unhappy. I choose to be happy. You can choose to be happy too. No matter what you choose to do with your life, there is always going to be someone who will judge you. I decided to embrace those who love me for who I am and the rest can kiss off.

I really hope that things get better for you! Just remember that you have people here that are your friends. If you need to chat, just send me a message. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MAGA99 11/15/2012 7:29PM

    I pray u can find ur inner peace

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MI-ELLKAYBEE 11/15/2012 5:20PM

    I understand how you feel...I do, too. May God bless your success on this journey we all share. I hope Santa finds you - I can't afford Christmas again.

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GRANDMABABA 11/15/2012 4:17PM

    Truth truly sets us free. I hope and pray that now armed with your truth you can make life feel much better for you. I know that I sometimes must remind myself that I don't often get to choose my circumstances, I always get to choose my reactions. I wish you peace in your chaos. emoticon

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PMFISH 11/15/2012 4:06PM

    Just remember when the cold hard facts dissolve our disillusions, we are now armed with the truth. That can be very powerful and can clear the path for a new and better future. It all depends on how you handle it. Unfortunately we seem to have stages to get to the better future. Anger, sadness, and finally acceptance! When you get to the last stage the light comes on and shines on what a real better life can be. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 11/15/2012 3:32PM

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Don't go too far with it, throwing out the stars with the Santa. Stark reality can be a good thing to face, but we can have doable (though challenging) dreams for our future. Those dreams just have to include the stark reality of the amount of work we have to be willing to do to achieve them.

Also, focus your dreams on what you CAN do, what you CAN change. In a relationship with another person, you cannot change what they will say or do - but you CAN change how you will respond to them. Be the person you want to be, make your dreams around what you can BE and DO, and you'll build your future.

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ANDREWMOM 11/15/2012 3:08PM

    Thinking of you.... it will get better. I feel your thoughts now an again!

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GOLDDUSTTWIN 11/15/2012 1:59PM

    Hi there! I just wanted to share that we all go through days, weeks sometimes months or years when nothing seems to go right but know that you will make it in your time and schedule not Sparkpeople's, your families, the doctors or anyone else’s but in your time, Hang in there and be comforted in knowing others care.

While there maybe no Santa there truly is someone who cares and that is why we celebrate Christmas when the greatest gift giver of all God sent His only Son emoticon to share in our pain and show us the way to Heaven. May the knowledge that you are not alone and you are loved and precious in God's sight be of comfort to you.


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MSANITAL 11/15/2012 1:06PM

    I am sorry you are feeling this pain and yes we sometimes have to feel the pain, but pain makes us stronger.the stronger you are the better you are and each day your getting stronger, it is like the song, what does not kill you only makes you stronger..
keep pushing that is the way your going to get stronger..
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3016DEBRA 11/15/2012 1:00PM

  You should get up & out & just do something nice for YOU! I wish you a good day emoticon emoticon

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