Wednesday, November 14, 2012
I have come to the conclusion that if going to the gym is too stressful, then I should not go for a while... and I shouldn't feel guilty for that decision. As long as I am doing some kind of ST at home, and keeping up with my cardio with walking, running and the bike, then I am doing fine. I need to maintain a low stress environment for my health, so this feels like the right decision. Swimming is on hold until after the New Year, as the pool will be closed.
To celebrate this decision I walked the dog for 2 hours this morning, an hour this afternoon, and 19 minutes this evening. I also walked home from the dinner I went to with my mom. (She wasn't ready to leave, and it was only a 2 mile walk, in a fairly well-lit section of town.) I also did 2 ST videos here on SP. I get plenty of exercise! That was almost 13 miles worth of walking today, and I didn't count the mile I walked to the library and back this afternoon. Wow, I guess it was a busy day. It didn't feel like it at the time.
The dinner I went to with my mom was a locavore potluck. I did pretty good at selecting small portions of healthy food off the buffet. It helps that it was heavy on the fruits and veggies and lean meats. Someone brought goat stew, but it was all gone by the time I got to the line. There was all sorts of luscious locally grown (or raised) food there, even local grape juice and apple cider. Mom and I took baked acorn squash with apples. The dinner was very well attended. In fact I left shortly after eating as it was getting too crowded and noisy for my comfort. My mom is much more gregarious than I am, and hadn't even made it to the serving line by the time I left. She was too busy talking. She has some mobility issues, so I offered to get her a plate of food before I left, but all she wanted was a glass of spiced cider. So, I got that for her then took off.
Cooper walked about 10 miles of today's mileage with me today. I think tomorrow I will take pity on him and do short walks. At least it was sunny today, even if it was still quite chilly. It is supposed to be sunny for the next week or so. I am hoping the sunshine will help clear the last of the melancholies away. I don't know why but the gray days are having a much bigger impact on me this year compared to last winter. My fat must have been protecting me!
I was taking a shower today, and realized that I am no longer fat! I don't usually look at myself when I am naked... it was too painful for a long time. But today I looked. I have loose skin, that may or may not go away over time, but I would no longer classify myself as fat. Not that I am "slender" yet, but I am getting there! So, not only am I shedding guilt today, but also old notions of how I perceive myself. It feels pretty good.