Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Well things are a bit better right now or should I say I am learning to dealing with things better. I started my new job, however only stayed for a couple of days before I had to call it quits. The added stress completely took me overboard, I did nothing but cry during waking hours when I was not at work....my blood pressure was sky high...180/110 (back to much lower now) and my feet and legs were killing me. I felt bad about having to quit but I know that it was the only choice.
My mom is doing about the same. She is still living alone (about 12 miles from me) but now at least has a life alert alarm that she wears in case she should fall or need help and can not get to a phone. I am taking care of most of her needs from paying bills, cleaning the house, laundry, cooking, some bathing, etc. The Oncologist appointment did not go well as she really disliked him and everything that he said....good and bad. Of course all he wanted to do was more testing and many repeat testing that she just had from a different hospital....she refused it all. A week from tomorrow we will be returning to her primary physician so that he can just treat her, needless to say she is wanting to just live day to day and not treat the masses and tumors. I respect her decision...although I am not sure I totally agree with it. I will be there for her no matter what.
Now for me....I have not gained any weight, although I have lost nothing....YET. I really need to find some ME time so that I can work on getting to a better place within myself. The last few months has been extremely stressful, but with faith and prayer I am finding some neutral ground so that I can at least breath and take care of things. I want to thank everyone who stopped by my page and left comments or goodies, it has helped me tremendously with keeping the faith to continue this journey. Hope everyone has a wonderful week ahead.