For the last month or two, I've rarely met my recommended calorie window. I've still tracked almost every bite, but I quit trying to meet that goal. I attribute my actions to two main factors. First, I gave myself permisssion to eat whatever I wanted. "I'm stressed," was my excuse. I decided that it would be okay to eat whatever I wanted as long as I still tracked and still met my fitness goals. Second, I struggle mightily with portion control. When I've been most successful at meeting my calorie window, I've still eaten a bunch, just chosen healthier items to feast on.

It's not working for me. I need to take control, not give it up. I'll feel better only when I take charge of my life again, make healthy choices, and not let stress rule my reaction to it. I'm in charge of my behavior, even if I'm not in control of outside factors. So, today I WILL meet my calorie goal. The first day of a new, positive streak.