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Good Experience and Bad Experience: All in One Day!!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

So, yesterday had all the appointments. The dreaded follow up from the nightmare visit with the man who wanted to put me on the birth defect making, seizure causing crazy med. After coming off the dreaded blood pressure medicine that my doctor 10 days ago acknowledged was a possible cause of stagnancy in weight loss, I have since lost 2 pounds! Yippee!!! emoticon My blood pressure was pretty high all day yesterday, at a whopping 135/94 at the doc office, but they said that since I was putting up with a terrible migraine, it was probably pain response and that I could safely stay off the med. However, as usual, my PCP was not attentive in listening with a "hmmm..." here and an "uh huh" there. And, wouldn't you know it folks....after I told him that I was on sparkpeople and trying to lose weight, and being healthy with my eating, and exercising, he still had the nerve to comment about my weight, and how I should try loseit.com (mind you he has mentioned this website 4,396 times before). OK!!! I GOT IT!!! I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!! THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE A FAT LOSER EVERYTIME I WALK IN YOUR OFFICE!!!

I do have to say the ortho appointment went extremely well, and I feel like this doctor really has my best interest at heart. He validated what I said, says he believes me that I have pain in my feet, and says that we will take the process of discovering this 13 year issue slowly. When I expressed to him my frustrations with not being able to exercise to help propel my weight loss to the next level because of pain, he prescribed me physical therapy through use of an underwater treadmill. He said that this should help me lose the weight more quickly without causing me pain. He also ordered bloodwork and a dietician consult. He says that we are going to start our exploration into the problem conservatively (nutrient/vitamin deficiencies), do the PT, and then move from there. I'm so thankful Lori told me about this doc! He is a good listener, sympathetic, and understanding. emoticon I finally feel some brightness in the dark tunnel of chronic pain which has defined me for so long!

As for the other doc, I think I'm finished. Everytime I leave his office, I feel like such a pathetic idiot and I feel like I don't have any solutions! In all the documentation yesterday, I actually saw the word "obese." I felt atrocious! Needless to say, I sobbed and sobbed last night on my husband's shoulder. I couldn't sleep, because that word kept flashing by in my mind, written exactly as I saw it in the documentation: ((((OBESE)))) emoticon emoticon But, I'm just going to move forward and not let it define me. I know I need to lose weight and that is what I'm trying to do. It just feels hopeless sometimes. emoticon And it sure doesn't help to have the very doctor who gave me a med to keep the weight on remind me constantly how fat I am. Anyway, I'm going to emoticon.

On a brighter note, I have the most adorable picture to share with you. It brightens me up so much and I hope it will do so for you too! My little dog, Pete gets super cold in the winter. Probably because at 11 pounds, who CAN sustain body heat?! Anyway, he's a little dapple dachschund/chihuahua mix and one of the brightest lights of my life! We took him and Parker, our King Charles Cavalier Spaniel for a walk the other night. Pete has a coat to wear for walks and he looks super cute sporting that thing. I was going to snap his picture in that but while I was logging my fitness minutes on Spark, my hubby slipped on Pete's snuggie and took off the little coat. He snuck up beside me in his snuggie and I got this picture:

Isn't that cute?! Hope it brings a smile to your face!
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    Good for you for wanting to walk away from that physician!!!! He is not the only game in town and you need to find someone that is willing to work with you in a way that makes sense. My heart breaks for the sadness you felt when you left his office--that should never happen, even though I know it does all the time. You can find someone who will help you in a positive way and you will succeed!!! I can understand some of these things too and I am here for you!!!!

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    1652 days ago
    Sounds like your PCP is a jerk. A self-absorbed one at that. You should never have to put up with a doctor who doesn't listen to you.

    It all boils down to whether he has respect for his patients or whether he just sees them as one more duty to fulfill before he can leave for the day.

    You deserve better! I think you're doing great and you'll keep doing great!

    Rah, rah, sis boom bah! *jumping up and down to cheer for you*
    1652 days ago
    If the doctor don;t fit....find a new one. I know it feels like a lot of work, but it will be worth it. Like you said he is not listening. emoticon We got this. You are not a pathetic loser...you are a real loser..the weight kind! emoticon
    And you show him you got what it takes.
    1652 days ago
  • DAWNESS0404
    I agree, find a new doctor. I went to one who sounded like that before and I only went one time!! I actually found a female doctor who I really like and who actually listens! So keep looking until you find the right one. The underwater treadmill sounds really cool! I hope it works for you!
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    1652 days ago
    I definitely suggest finding a new doctor. He seems a bit loopy and inconsiderate; you don't need more stressed. You should feel like you can talk with your doctor. You should feel like he understands you. So, I highly suggest finding a doctor that respects you and your feelings a bit more.

    As for the ortho appointment, I am really glad that things are moving forward with that. Hopefully, he will be able to provide you with some relief! Oh, and the underwater treadmill sounds pretty cool. You'll have to blog (picture please)!

    I know it's tough but hang in there! emoticon

    P.S. Cute baby!
    1652 days ago
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