****Thank you to everyone who has supported me along the way! I am now a Spark Motivator! Thank you!!!!!!!!! This website helps me so much. Hopefully I can help some of you too. Let me know if you need any support or help. A little goes a long way, and I am willing to help!****
When I woke up this morning, I felt a bit different. I realize I definitely need a self-push today. What is a self-push? I have no idea! I just feel like I need one to continue my life journey in the right direction. Life is crazy. Even when my day seems to be going smoothly - I try to remind myself to be prepared for anything!
My daily life is so different now. I barely get food cravings anymore (which is helpful). Unfortunately, I also don't have the urge to decide what to eat most of the time. When I go out to a restaurant, I can basically go anywhere and find something to eat. I may not be satisfied with what I order if I just get a plain house salad with no croutons & no cheese... but at least I will be happy I didn't go over calories by giving in to the craving of a cheeseburger or pizza. Sometimes I still wish my stomach would tolerate very fatty foods - I wouldn't mind going over calories if it filled my belly! Instead of worrying about going over on the tracker, I worry about going under. If I just have a salad as a meal, I usually am under my calories for the day. Even though my low end of my tracker range is at 1350 calories, sometimes after I enter my dinner I may only be at 1,000 or 1,100 for the day! I do like snacking, but I hate eating JUST to make sure I ate enough for the day. We all have our own challenges. We need to face them in our own way no matter how big or small they may be!
I need a self-push to figure out how to change my eating habits. I bring my own snacks with me everywhere I go. I can't keep putting off how to make eating easier for me!
Besides eating better, I also need a self-push in my personal life today. For as long as I can remember, I have been a nice person. Throughout my life, I have randomly gotten compliments on how patient, understanding, and thoughtful I can be. Knowing I am caring has been good & bad. Instead of making myself happy, I would always give 150% to other people to try and make their life easier. Sadly, I was upset with how my life was going. Instead of focusing on the blessings of my life, I would only see the downside of everything.
After re-discovering myself with Spark's help, I realize I need to do more for me. I broke up with my ex- fiancÚ in June for many reasons. He still wants to try and fix the relationship. I have tried explaining to him that I can't get back together with him right now. He mentioned being friends until I figured out what I wanted to do. Every time I see his negativity in a text or hear it in his voice, my whole mood changes drastically. I feel weak, awful, alone, and so upset. I feel bad because I know he is upset. I hate hurting him. However, I need to stop being pulled back into the dark funk.
I need a self-push today to tell him how it really is & how it is has to be. I can't keep letting him feel upset because of me. He has told me he wants me to be happy, and if I will be happier without him, he will understand. He needs to live his own life and move on. (If he reads this before I get to talk to him today - sorry!)
There are many situations people I don't want to be in. At times, I get anxious, nervous, and scared to face reality! But I know I *Need* to take this leap and figure out my life! Sometimes our lives fall off the path we thought we were destined to be on. I know I need to always be ready to set new goals for myself. I want to help others, but I also need to keep myself in mind. I need to keep smiling with the greatness in my life! Negativity changes my whole mood too much.
I need a self-push to keep moving forward!!!!!
I hope everyone has a great rest of the week. If there is something you are putting off, hopefully you can give yourself a self-push soon too and keep moving forward! Keep Sparking & keep reaching for your goals!