Major Challenge for this week:
NO time to exercise (usual routine)
Something to do every night this week except Thursday. (I will have a full blown session with my treadmill no matter how much I would prefer to curl up with a book.
I used to love to walk at lunch break but I work in a really bad neighborhood. It really is not safe. I will sometimes go out with a couple of the guys from the welding shop but most of them have been disinterested of late.
Monday: (179.5lbs) I crammed in a couple miles and a healthy Dinner before my plans. Really though I wasn’t going to be able to but I did. Was very proud of myself except the part where my plans involved a couple of high calorie beers, but I DID resist the Buffalo wings that everyone else was downing with said beers. (I wanted them so bad)
Got a 2am phone call from my Ex that I did not answer but it took me 2 hours to fall back asleep
Tues: (Did not weigh) Woke up tired and with a headache after bad dreams involving the EX. Rainy day, low self esteem, a pile of high stress work situations, and date night with my new BF. I started with a brownie for breakfast. Not so awesome. But it was a planned splurge. The BF had made them for me over the weekend and to stop myself from having dessert the night before I decided to have the brownie with my coffee in the morning instead of my oatmeal as opposed to on top of all the other day’s food.
Sadly, while it was tasty, it really made me feel kind of gross. I am not equipped to handle that much sugar in the morning and Knowing it was bad for me added to the “fat feeling” my mind was feeding me. I had a reasonable lunch. No exercise. I got so busy I forgot to do my stretches during the day too.
Went straight’s to the BF’s house after work, he made garlic bread, baked ziti, and a small side salad. I ate more than I should have and had 2 glasses of red wine with. (it could have been worse but I still felt like a bloated pig)
Self esteem improved vastly though as He called me gorgeous, and in non-verbal several ways made sure I knew that he thought that was true.
Could not shut off my mind to sleep. Mostly it was work. Drifted in and out a bit but finally fell asleep about 2 hours before alarm went off
Weds-so far (179.5-same!) : Tired, but not as bad as exspected. Normal breakfast. Still crazy busy stressfull at work. Convinced one of the guys to walk with me so I got a 15 minute walk in! YAY. Leftover pasta for lunch, but a reasonable portion this time.
I get home around 5 tonight and have to leave again for a meeting at 5:30.
The goal for tonight is to get home. Prep a quick veggie rich dinner that can steam or bake while I go fit in at least one more mile on the treadmill (slowly so I don’t get sweaty) The healthy dinner is the most important part because often the have fast food at or after the meetings and if I do not eat dinner first I will have no control.
Will not get home till late but if I did not manage to walk before maybe I can fit in 10 minutes before bed. (I hope I get some decent sleep)
BACK TO WORK-
UPDATE WEDS NIGHT (at my meeting) I actually managed to fit in the mile beforehand. Also the healthy dinner because I forgot I had leftovers from Monday night's meal. YAY