Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Thanks to all my great Spark friends who have been checking up on me, leaving messages and the occasional goodie. You guys are the best.
I typed this earlier today but am only sending this now...
I am sitting outside the neurology department at our Children's Hospital waiting to speak to our neurologist. For the first time in ages I have a moment to breathe. Our family has been quite challenged with ongoing concerns for my eldest daughter. No longer a conversation about seizures, we had added new topics into the mix, possibility of glaucoma, auto immune disease and more. Throw into the recipe, my wife is very stressed out and not sleeping. Her anxieties have created a new challenge that must be dealt with. The emotions in our house are elevated beyond high and life has been challenging.
I wish I had more time to Spark but I am trying to help out at home, do my job and just cope with the days. I wish I could say I was exercising, going for walks and eating properly but the opposite is very much true. I am not surprised my weight has gone up, but surprised it has not ballooned because I seem to be eating way too much chocolate, but then again, nothing but chocolate it seems. I wish I could be exercising but everyone seems to need my help around the house and my time is limited. I would love to get up earlier and workout but every sleeping moment has been precious as I am often woken by m wife's pacing or by her nudge when she wants to talk.
Life right now is a challenge and I wish I could be here on Spark more than once every blue moon. I am seeing that there could be a light at the end of this tunnel as we have an EEG set up for this Thursday, another ophthalmology appt in two weeks, a pediatrician in another week or so, and I am hoping all the questions get answered and a plan in place for my dear daughter. I am hoping each of these possibilities are nothing to worry about and that my wife's anxiety calms.
So that's my story. I really would prefer to be here but that's difficult right now. I, for one, can not wait until my two week break at Christmas and the turn of the calendar.