Tuesday, November 13, 2012
I've been on this journey for awhile now so you can imagine how many times I've slipped up. It may be no secret to you, due to my lack of appearances on Spark, but I have not been doing so well. There now that I've admitted it, maybe I can get back to it. Can I? I ponder this question for a bit before the obvious dawns on me.
It's not a matter of IF I can do it. It's a matter of WHEN. It's a matter of how far I am willing to go. The only thing standing in front of my goal, sabotaging my health-- is me. And how good a saboteur I am. I skip out on exercising. There's always some good, logical excuse at the time. I feel like crap about myself for skipping but that didn't stop me from doing it. Besides it's too cold to get out and exercise now, right? Wrong! I want to be done with the excuses! Perhaps I need someone in my ear constantly telling me to get my fat butt off the couch and get to working out. It couldn't hurt.
Surprisingly I am not eating too bad considering I am eating what I like to call a 'Poor woman's diet." That's just code to make me feel better about eating cheap, processed crap in a box. But I've been much better about portion sizes and adding in lots of healthy vegetables as of late. I may just learn one of these days. Perhaps there is hope for me yet.
So once again, I am sitting here at the computer on Spark thinking this is my time. I will lose this weight. But this time, I don't have the 'yeah, you said that last time' voice nagging me from the back of my mind. I know it will be a long, difficult road. Nothing worth having is easy. Isn't that what they all say? I think it can be easy, it's all a matter of how we view it. It's sad that I am just now coming to realize (I've always known this) that it was my mind that needed a makeover before I could even start on my body. Like I said, I've known this, just now fully realizing and appreciating it. Nearly 24 years of bad habits is a hard thing to break, but I know it can be done! And without the added pressure of a set time to get fit by, I'm feeling better about the whole thing already. So I say Bring it on!
Have a fabulous, healthy day and never give up! No matter how long you've been 'off the wagon' you can always get back on. We never forget how, we just get too discouraged to try. Never be afraid to be the best you that you can be!