Am I making excuses?
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
As I mentioned on Sunday, I decided to start a C25K program and did my first run. Well, okay, I didn't decide this on Sunday. Several things had led up to it and Sunday was a beautiful day so I went for it. I knew I wouldn't be going on Monday. Primarily because it's bad to go on consecutive days when you're a total newbie! Also because I knew it was going to rain pretty much all day (which it did).
So I decided Tuesday would be my second day. Until Monday when I talked to one of my daughter's teachers and we schedule a conference for Tuesday. Well, fine, then. I guess Tuesday isn't a good day to go out again.
Now here it is Tuesday evening and I find myself thinking "what's going to keep me from going for a run on Wednesday?" It's supposed to be chilly but clear and breezy. I have this beautiful walking path just half a mile from home. There is an office I'm thinking I need to go to but it's right where I get on the path anyway!
So I go to the office first and then (unless it takes all day there) run the path, right? I hear it in my head already "but what about lunch?", "what if...", "but the TIME"!
I can't go on Thursday because my son is having his wisdom teeth out that morning. I can probably get out on Friday, though. Unless his extraction goes as horribly as mine did back in the day. Then I'll be spending a lot of Friday sitting with him at the hospital. But I'm sure that won't happen.
So... am I making excuses to avoid doing something challenging? Or was this just a bad week to start? Is there such thing as a "good" week to start? Nobody ever said being a single mom of 2 kids with ASD wouldn't be time consuming!
But, no, I don't regret leaving their father even for a second. I only regret that it took me so long to be ready to do it!