Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Well, I have been eating better. Plus, doing well on my exercise. But, I have been feeling more anxious. The night before last was really bad. I couldn't sleep. My husband hurt his leg trying to climb on a chair. He skinned his chin really badly. He has poor circulation in his legs from CHF and COPD. Luckily, the bleeding wasn't too bad. But, he was in pain. I cleaned it and put triple antibiotic cream on it. He moaned and tossed and turned all night. I was so anxious that I couldn't stop rubbing and picking on my eczema. When I finally fell asleep, I had a dream I was taking care of a man with HIV. Then, all of a sudden I turned into the man with HIV. I had a missing leg and a sore foot that was bleeding profusely. When I looked down at it, it looked like a giant bed sore. I was in a lot of pain. I was limping with my bloody sore foot, all over looking for someone to help me bandage it. I woke up and my face was all red with 3 scratch marks.
I thought, wow, how could I let my anxiety get that intense? I had been doing good with the gratitude and the positive thinking. Well, I went to the gym with my headphones and relaxing music. I rode the recumbent bicycle. Then I did some weight machines. After a shower , I did some laps in the pool. Then, I got in the sauna, then the steam room, then the hot tub. Before I left I took a long steamy, shower. When I got home I felt so relaxed. I felt wonderful. I slept great.
I am going to have to monitor my anxiety more closely. Instead of letting it boil over.