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Don't Worry About Me

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Hey, loyal SparkFriends!

Thank you so very much for checking in with me and leaving me such kind and wonderful messages. I apologize for dropping off the face of the SparkPlanet. Yes, I've been out of town with work and things have been busy. In addition, I'm dealing with some pretty big changes in my life that have left me on a rather difficult emotional roller coaster over the past couple of weeks.

I can't go into detail right now (but I will be able to eventually...patience). I will just say this: I'm on track with training. Took a 2-mile bike ride with my 7 year-old on Sunday because it was 70 degrees in Indiana in November...WHAT?! She actually taught herself to ride a 2-wheeler JUST so she could ride bikes with Mama on the trail. Such a precious little girl!

Yesterday, I had my first swim in quite some time (since just after the half marathon). It was EXACTLY what I needed!!! It just felt so wonderful and natural and I could have stayed in that lane all day...but, alas, had to head to work at some point. I feel like swimming brings me to a place of tranquility...even moreso than running. I posted a FB status yesterday that said, "Something about putting on the suit and getting in the water causes all the fear, shame and despair to just fall away, even if only for half an hour. *SIGH* This is my therapy."

That was actually a lie, though...cuz I am seeing a new therapist for a first visit this afternoon. Haha. Hey...we all need help. And, with what I'm dealing with now...I need some real emotional help...someone just for ME! There is no shame in that, friends. Best part is...I'm only $130 from my deductible, so after this first session, it's pretty much free. That was a sweet little gift from God. I had no clue I was that close on my deductible!

This morning, I had my very first 6:30am spinning class. It was wonderful. And...truthfully, another chance to zone out and just forget the world. So, you see...I'm using my training as an emotional and mental escape. It's time dedicated just for me...time where I can just stop worrying and crying for awhile. Time to build what is strong inside of me...physically, mentally, and emotionally. THIS is what fitness is about! Forget the stupid scale! It keeps me sane!!!!

My Prep Phase of my training year is in full swing and that means 5 hours training per week until December, when the hours increase a bit. I've rigged it so I'm getting some swimming, spinning, and weight training in. My body will be so thankful after a few weeks of this. I'm very thrilled about this.

Plus...the schedule and regularity of it all is going to help me through all that is going on in my life.

I'm so glad I started when I did...so that I'd be addicted to health at this point, when everything is hitting the fan. Why? Because, if I would have been a "newbie", all of this would have been one huge excuse for me to give up. But, instead...being somewhat "seasoned" with working out and making healthy choices, it is one of the key things that will pull me through.

I don't know about you guys...but I think that's pretty amazing.
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BANDMOM2012 11/23/2012 1:17PM

    Having someone to talk with that is only there to listen is worth every penny! Take care of ;yourself emoticon

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LIBRARYBELL1 11/17/2012 8:18PM

    I'm glad you're doing the therapy for yourself, it can only be good! I think about you every time I log on to sparkpeople. I don't have time to visit and write like I use to, but I still wonder about people and read too. I'm glad you're keeping up with your exercise. Doing exercise definitely makes me feel stronger. Sending some good, strong vibes your way!

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SHIRE33 11/17/2012 4:29PM

    These last three months have been extremely stressful for me. It's so good for me to see you going through really tough times and still staying committed. Thank you so much for sticking with it and sharing your experiences.



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SATCHMO99 11/15/2012 4:19PM

    Hey there, hugs for you, and I'm so pleased that you have your "therapy" to help you get through your stuff. You never know how strong you can be until you are tested.

Again, hugs for you xx

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LINDAK25 11/15/2012 2:00PM

    It's great that you can stay on your training schedule, especially when you are going through big changes in your life. Not an easy thing to do. Stay strong.

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JUNEAU2010 11/14/2012 10:13PM

    YOU are pretty amazing! emoticon
Sending good thoughts your way!

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GOSPARK45 11/14/2012 1:19PM

    It's truly amazing! Look how far you've come. Hope everything turns out okay.

Sounds like your little girl might have some warrior in her too. You never know what she might grow up to be!

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LINDAKAY228 11/14/2012 9:52AM

    Great job on finding ways to use exercise to help you deal with the stress. I'm so sorry that you are going whatever you are going through. Glad you are able to see a therapist though. I've been through counseling in the past, and you're right, sometimes we all need a little help. You're going to get through this!

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COLETTEISGREAT 11/14/2012 5:20AM

    Exercise and "me time" are such great forms of therapy!

Sedning you Hugs and Support always.

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RUNNERRACHEL 11/14/2012 4:20AM

    Exercise is a great form of therapy. Talking is good therapy too. Glad you have some dedicated "you" time

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RUN_BAKE_BLOG 11/13/2012 10:56PM

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PEGGYO 11/13/2012 9:28PM

    You're doing great.

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KIPPER15 11/13/2012 8:55PM

    emoticon As the old country western song goes, when you hit rock bottom you have two ways to go, straight up or side ways. You have proved that you are one tough lady. Have faith in yourself and God and you will make it. emoticon

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NILLAPEPSI 11/13/2012 7:47PM

    emoticon Praying for you.

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Whatever it is that you are going through, know that you can always come to your spark friends for a helping hand and a good ear. It sounds like you are sticking with your program, and getting help where you think you need it, and that's important too. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

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GUITARWOMAN 11/13/2012 7:39PM

    Hang in there!

You will get through the rough spots......

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REGILIEH 11/13/2012 3:52PM

    emoticon emoticon for your problems. I try to look at my problems as OPPORTUNITIES in work clothes.

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EBURGITE 11/13/2012 3:11PM

    hang in there and keep getting healthy!

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NITTINNANA 11/13/2012 3:03PM

    I'm so glad to see you back. Whatever combination of "stuff" is going on, I'd be surprised if someone in SP hadn't travelled that road ahead of you and made it through. So rest assured that you will (eventually!) too. Still, I'm glad you're seeking help with what life is throwing your way. Hang in there, Spark Sister!
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ROB704 11/13/2012 2:32PM

    Hey there ... whatever is going on - hang in there, you're plenty strong enough to weather it. Just a feeling..but my instincts are usually pretty good. Keep pounding the pavement and the water and you'll come out the other side. Promise.

Thinking about you!

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COOP9002 11/13/2012 2:20PM

    Sounds like you're getting a good handle upon your stress.

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SENIORSWIMMER 11/13/2012 1:43PM

    I feel the same way about swimming. When I was in my 20's, the USMS worked out from 9-10. Ideal. Get in the pool, and all the stress of the day just washed away. Go home and sleep like a rock.

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BLUE42DOWN 11/13/2012 1:33PM

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Very glad that you're doing everything you can to take care of you, including a therapist now rather than after you've been dragged down to a considerably lower point.

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A much healthier outlet!

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NSMANN 11/13/2012 1:32PM

    Bike rides with the family are great!

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FITFOODIE806 11/13/2012 1:29PM

    It absolutely is amazing. And so are you! I often wonder how people that don't workout handle stress. I would be a nutjob! Glad you're finding moments of peace during a difficult time.
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COCK-ROBIN 11/13/2012 1:01PM

    And you are amazing! Good work!

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SEATTLE58 11/13/2012 12:37PM

    It's so good to hear from you again! Glad that you're loving your exercise! That can really log up the minutes! emoticon emoticon

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 11/13/2012 12:37PM

    Great job! Hope things level out!

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PATTISTAMPS 11/13/2012 12:35PM

    I have been thinking of you and worrying... Glad you are able to get training in despite whatever is going on. Hugs!

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AMARILYNH 11/13/2012 12:27PM

    Good for you taking time for you - both with exercise and with seeing a therapist!! I totally 100% believe in both!! emoticon

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BEBOP4ME 11/13/2012 12:18PM

    Glad to hear you are still giving time for you with all the stresses you have! emoticon

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MEH50BEWELL 11/13/2012 12:01PM

    I'm so glad you are taking time for you - both exercising and therapy! Speaking from experience - a little therapy can go a long way... You have such great confidence - even when your away I always feel you still have your SP on! You go girl.


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LMH1223 11/13/2012 11:59AM

    It's amazing how exercise can help us through our situations in life!! Hang in there!!

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OBIESMOM2 11/13/2012 11:58AM

    glad you are doing okay and that you are taking some time for YOU.

get in as many sessions with the therapist as you can before the end of the year (I'm guessing that's when your deductible resets).

and THANK YOU for letting us know you are okay. I do get concerned when once very active Sparkers disappear!

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AUSFAM 11/13/2012 11:53AM

    I was laying awake in bed last night thinking of you and hoping that all is well! I'm sure no words will make you feel better but know that we're all thinking of you. You're continually an inspiration! emoticon

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VICKYMARIEC 11/13/2012 11:53AM

    GIrl, life sucks sometimes, but i'm glad you are seeing the small glimses of hope and relief through it all. Keep strong girl! We are here for you...

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HFAYE81 11/13/2012 11:49AM

    Awesome! You work so hard. Keep at it!!! emoticon

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ON2VICTORY 11/13/2012 11:46AM

    We love our Leah! Im so glad to hear you got a handle on things and you are not losing your focus but rather are seeking refuge in what keeps you at your best.

hang in there buddy....

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SLIMLEAF 11/13/2012 11:40AM

    Good to hear from you Leah. I'm so glad that you find exercise so therapeutic - I do too. I don't know how I'd have got through the last couple of years if I couldn't run. emoticon

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SENIMMO 11/13/2012 11:38AM

    Glad you are working your way through it all. Take care. emoticon

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SWEETEYES0601 11/13/2012 11:38AM

    Yes, that is awesome! I use exercise as "therapy" from time to time. Especially when I'm angry about something! I take it out on the eliptical. GGggggrrrrr! LOL Good for you. We're here if you need us!

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TARANITUP 11/13/2012 11:34AM

    Glad that exercise can be such an outlet for you as you face challenging times!!!

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