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Tuesday, November 13, 2012



See that face? It looks happy, but the truth is for the past 2 months, I have been anything but happy. Yesterday, I made a conscious effort to change this! I went to Zumba, and my instructor was genuinely concerned about my well being. We had an awesome talk before the class and she even let me choose a song for the set list. I had fun sweating! Yesterday is the first day that I have ate right for an entire day since August.

You don't even want to know what the scale says. Sunday, I weighed in at 197. This was not okay for someone that has weighed 159 this year. This morning I weighed in at 192, and I know it sounds facetious, but I am happy that I didn't go over 200 pounds. I am not sure that I could bounce back from letting myself get that far away from my goals.

I know it's important to not beat myself up, but this beating that I have given myself has made me realize that I have goals set and I will reach them! Here's to being a size 4 and being at my goal weight by August 2013.


My goal is to be 185 by Thanksgiving! I know it is a little unrealistic to lose 7 pounds in a week, but I want to do it just to prove to myself that I have it in me to succeed!
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  • JUSGETTENBY42
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  • THESLIMMERME1
    emoticon Just take one step - one day at a time, soon you will gather momentum emoticon emoticon
    1410 days ago
  • ESIGURBERGSSON
    I saw this quote today on SP. I thought it was awesome!

    Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson

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  • LORIANNIE70
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  • TDWANDD2MYK9
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  • CM_GARDNER78
    Oooooooooh girl you are NOT alone!!! Do NOT beat yourself up, and do whatever you need to do to get back on track!! You can do this!! Look at how many people believe that!! :-) (((HUGS)))
    1411 days ago
  • MARYHENNIG
    Pick your own Christmas gift: the gift of loving yourself and taking care of yourself. You will reach all of your goals. It just takes time.
    1411 days ago
  • BEATLETOT
    I came here because of the Best Of email, and let me say, you are GORGEOUS. That's all. =)
    1411 days ago
  • INTOTHESOUTH
    I've been in a similar funk myself. All we can do is pick ourselves up again. You are doing great. Hopefully we can both hit 185 by Thanksgiving!!
    1412 days ago
  • IAMAGEMLOVER
    emoticon While I haven't put on any weight, I haven't taken any off either. I usually have over 2000 fitness minutes by the end of every month for the last 10 months. This month I have 150 so far. 120 is from a pool workout I did on 11/5. I just have no desire to exercise and I can't figure out what is happening. I say I am going for a walk and never do. I say I am going to the pool and "life" gets in the way. What watching television or playing solitaire on the computer or reading a good book? It has to get turned around. You are not alone. emoticon
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  • SHIRE33
    You're here and you're doing it! I can so relate. I've put on 24 pounds in 3 months, after losing 93. But I'm at the limit of my size 8 jeans, and I am committed to getting back into the 4s and 6s. Getting rid of my fat clothes was a good idea! It's been really hard to get back at it. I'd have a good day or two, and then a week of bad days.

    But I know what's really important to me, and I want that feeling back. Sounds like you are doing all the right things!
    1413 days ago
  • 4GREEN4
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  • TONYTHETSANGEL
    Ebielou:

    1. Be grateful that you had the insight to stop yourself before going over 200. emoticon

    2. Be grateful that you have a MAJOR weight loss accomplishment behind you!! emoticon

    3. So, now that you have refocused yourself, keep pushing forward, don't look back.
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    4. You know you can do it because you have in the past!! emoticon

    That same previous determination will carry you through! Good luck in reaching your goal!! emoticon
    1414 days ago
  • CRISSA1669
    There is something mental about "200"...it's like it's a death sentence or a concrete marker of either how far you've come or how far you"ve let yourself go. I have come across your page several times over the last year and half I have been on Spark and it has always encouraged me to see how far you have come. Ok so you've blown it since August...ok it's done, there is absolutely no reason to dwell on it...it will profit you nothing...use it as a reminder of a place you prefer not to be and keep your eyes facing front. Don't make excuses for poor eating or for not working out...if you eat poor one day...purpose to fix it the next day. If you didn't work out today work out tonight or tomorrow. Put on the workout clothes/shoes and just do it...I am right there with you.......it's hard!!!! I am facing the same thing...more poor food options in front of me, less desire to workout or go for a run....but I don't want the weight back so THINGS must be done to keep me moving forward. You love Zumba, keep on going with it...do what you like as often as you can. Weight loss, increased health, exercise...it can be quite UNCOMFORTABLE....BUT I would not trade my results for anything...so I'll take the stupid Lindt chocolate balls that I ate last night(4 of them!! so good lol) right along with the 9 MILES I ran this morning....this is life...keep moving along.....you are SO much further ahead than when you started and for that you should be OVERJOYED and SMILING EAR TO EAR!! You'll get there sweetie!!! :)
    1414 days ago
  • FIGHTINGFORME1
    you can achieve anything you set your mind to! It is not that crazy to lose 7lbs in one week especially if you are just starting out my very first week i lost 12 lol crazy i know! but have faith in this journey and you will reach your goals
    1414 days ago
  • ILIKETOZUMBA
    I know you're not happy with where you are right now, but WOW I just looked at your profile page, and your overall progress is AMAZING!! I can't believe you started at 366 pounds and are now under 200! Congratulations!!! I'm glad your Zumba instructor was so helpful and concerned, and I hope you reach your goals; you sound super motivated, so I'm sure you will! You're doing fantastic! :)
    1415 days ago
  • FATHINSN
    Don't worry what the scale says, you also need to see what others say to you as overall review - your energy and mood levels, inches, how you fit into your clothes, your glow (inner and outer) :D

    Though, it's nice to have decrease at the weight :D
    1415 days ago
  • L1ZB3TH354
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  • NISA-JOE
    Good luck on reaching your goals!
    I too have gained a considerable amount of weight in the past 8 months or so. I used to be so active but slacked off after a break-up.
    I'm trying to pick myself back up. I hope to reach my goals by mid next year.
    We can all do it! emoticon
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  • ADVENTURESEEKER
    Good job on picking yourself up and getting back on track! I, too, have gained back about 15 lbs, and I've kicked my own @ss into gear. You can do it!
    1415 days ago
  • VOLLEYGIRL77
    Good luck just keep your head up even if you don't lose the 7 pounds!
    1415 days ago
  • BOOERDEM
    Thanks for your honesty - I really appreciated it & it encourages me to be that way, too!! I love your smile & hope you keep on dancing & having fun on your way to your goals!!!! emoticon
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  • JERILICIOUS
    The first step is realizing you need to make changes, now that your pumped go get it.
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  • GRANDMABABA
    One day at a time, one choice at a time ... you can do it. Don't beat yourself up and try not to make goals that are unrealistic. emoticon
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  • KATV865
    Just keep making those small, every day good decisions and they will start to pile up and you'll see some good results! Maybe not 7 pounds at once, but as long as the scale is moving in the right direction, you know you're doing something right! You can do it!
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  • BEMORESTUBBORN
    Slow and steady wins the race... Hang in there and continue giving it your all!
    1415 days ago
  • PROVERBS31JULIA
    Well, I certainly can't "cast the first stone..." as one who has similar struggles as you have! We can all make the decision to turn aside from the wrong path and get back on the RIGHT TRACK and make those changes!! Your face is beautiful, full of thr hope and determination to set those wrongs to your body aside, and do the right things for your body!!

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  • FIRECOM
    Confession is the catharsis of the soul. I applaud you for making the decision to take control of your destiny. Hang in there.
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  • 1DRWOMAN
    Man...I think most of us have been and felt like you have...I have! Don't look back...just look forward and get it done! Commit to yourself. Be kind and patient with yourself as well. It's a journey! Think of all you've learned about yourself! Now go be a rockstar! You can do this! I'm cheering for you and on the same journey., you are not alone!
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  • MARYJEANSL
    I know the frustration with gaining. But you have stopped the gain right in its tracks, and now you are going in the right direction. You have a great attitude, and you will achieve your goals Good luck!!
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  • PCASEY7
    I'm sure you will do this! Best of luck on your journey!
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  • ROCKYCPA
    Having goals is the way to get where you want to be. Keep pushing and you can do it!!!
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  • CICELY360
    good blog
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  • AYANNA47
    GIRL! I can relate! Last year I was down to 163 and slowly but surely I found my weight creep up to 195 a month ago! I've been blessed enough to refocus and so far I'm back to 187 and looking to hit 180 by early December. All it takes is dedication and follow-through. I know we can do it!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • LIBBYL1
    Good luck --- and keep dancing your way to that size 4
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  • ITSALWAYSABTME
    I too have been off track , but since September and it caused me to go 11 lbs UP. I stopped my 3days a week C25K training, my 2-3 x's a way kickboxing both of which I loved......
    I made the decision to start over yesterday, just getting myself back into logging in and being accountable. My goals for the next two weeks are just to LOG, its crazy time of year and very stressful (not sure if I will have a job/insurance come January added into the holiday stress's)
    But we can do it!
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  • A-NEW-NURSE
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  • JIBBIE49
    emoticon great to see your blog featured in the Spark Mail. What an honor.
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  • NIKKIG3
    Yeahhhhhh for small accomplishments. They all matter. And good for you with your eating!
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  • SHANDOO
    I sooo know how you feel. I have been off track for way way too long. And I am heavier now than I told myself I would ever get. By a lot. I am excited to be getting started back up, and feel pretty positive about my ability to carry through with it! And I know you can reach your Thanksgiving goal! Just keep saying positive things to yourself. Don't even let words with negative connotations go through your mind. Say to yourself, "I am thin", etc. :-) I know you can do it!
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  • NEWCHINELO
    We are in this together and we will make it,go girl!

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