Tuesday, November 13, 2012
I had a bad day yesterday! Just couldn't get anything together. Ate bad, no exercise and sat sat sat! Then we had to get our family picture taken for the church directory! Double ugh! I hate pictures. But it certainly is a wake up call! I feel bad cause there really isn't many pictures of me and our last family picture was 3 yrs ago. I'm always saying.....when I lose weight we have a nice one done. My kids will all be gone if I don't hurry up!
I am just stuck in my rut again. I have been doing pretty well this month. Lost 5 pounds and have been eating better and tracking. Weekends still are a struggle but I just need to suck it up and DO IT! I'm frustrated with myself because it seems I've wasted so much time. I've been fat for far too long! I do well, then I falter, then I despise myself, then I give myself a pep talk and start it all over again.
So what do I need to do differently??
I need to not think I need to be perfect!
I need to not use that as an excuse
I need to make small changes and progress instead of going back to the start
I need to LOVE MYSELF----so hard!
I need to get up off my butt and move more!
I need to not hide from it all but DO SOMETHING about it!
Ok......once again......onward and forward!