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disordered thinking and disordered eating

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

My mental health has been a significant challenge and my eating is challenged with it. I have been in a place of low self worth and high self injury. I am scalding and cutting and eating highly sugary foods, which for a diabetic, is a form of self injury. I've been so low that even my love for my partner and child are not doing much for my will to live and be healthy. I am trying hard to workout three times a week and it feels good to do it, but I don't feel very deserving of living a healthy and balanced life right now. The good news is that I haven't had any hallucinations in almost a month so I have that to be thankful for.

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    I'm so sorry for your pain. Getting the right meds AND doctor is challenging.

    You ARE worthy!
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  • TEMPEST272002
    Hugs to you. I've struggled like this before & understand how hard it is. One of the things I've discovered is that high-sugar food feeds my depression on a physical level as well as mental. When I "eat clean" (google Tosca Reno), I notice a drastic improvement in my mental health.

    I want you to know... that inner voice that tells you that you aren't worthy is a LIAR. Just because you are, you are enough. Truly.

    I've found this site to be useful to me for emotional eating:
    1954 days ago
    emoticon that you are still struggling with mental issues. Keep taking your medicines and exercise will help. It is good that hallucinations are not bugging you on top of every thing else. Learn some relaxing exercises, keep focusing on the love of pattern's and daughter, this love will keep you moving forward. If you are able leave those sugary foods in the store. emoticon emoticon
    1954 days ago
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