This whole thing isn't going so well...
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Life is tough sometimes. And when you are trying to lose weight, it can be even harder. This has been such a long journey and I am getting discouraged that it's not happening a little faster. I am gaining weight and I honestly have NO idea why. I got under 200 pounds once. It was glorious. I loved it and was so happy and proud. I vowed I would NEVER go back. But I did. At first I thought it was muscle. I do all the "extreme" workout programs. P90X, Insanity, Tapout XT... I love them all. I have seen the most progress with Tapout XT. My body changed in ways I never thought possible. I have beautiful muscle definition now... really awesome. Yet, I gained and was dangerously close to 200 again. (Lowest I got was 193). Then, seemingly overnight, I was over 200 again and for months now I have bounced up and down between 201 to 208.
I am also exhausted. I mean, really really really tired. I am usually full of energy. I am always on the go. I have been doing double workouts since school started back (I'm a substitute teacher who gets called- A LOT!) So on the days I work (lately 5 days a week) I spend an hour in the school gym and then come home and do my Tapout XT. (I am on round 2- my second 90-day rotation) I'm wondering if I am just doing too much? I also have a two year old who is proving that "terrible twos" do exist. Maybe just the combination is enough to wear me out?
I just don't know. I have had my thyroid tested and it's fine. I'm starting to get concerned over the whole fatigue thing though. I know fatigue can either mean I am just tired or that something else is wrong.
My plan is to *try* to take a break this week. Yesterday all I did was walk on the treadmill at 3mpg at 12% incline for 45 minutes. That's like a stroll compared to what I usually do. I have no idea what I will do today. That's why I like the 90-day programs because it gives me structure and a goal to work towards. When I just go blindly into working out I feel lost... I have almost 100 workout DVDs so I can certainly find something to do, but I feel like I need direction.
Overall, I am struggling with the concept of "focusing on where I have come from and not where I have to go." I have lost over 120 pounds. But that means nothing to me because I feel like a failure because I can't get under 200. I feel like a failure because I am STILL wearing a size 14/16 when I want to be a 10/12 (I know, not important!). I feel like a failure because my two year old has a total meltdown at least once a day. I feel like a failure because I cannot look in the mirror and be proud of what I see...
There has GOT to be a way to get past these things...
Member Comments About This Blog Post
Do you know if you snore. Sleep apnea is one of the most draining feelings. Perhaps you should have a sleep study.
MY DH had asleep study, He did not snore but he stopped breathing so his oxygen was low, After 20 years he has had this situation if he goes away a few days and forgets RARELY does he forget now, he will be yawning and tired. Just a thought in case it helps to check it out.
It does sound like you are over doing it too. Instead of focusing on exercise try focusing on Portion control. I decided to read. The spark solution. I had a TWO YEAR PLATEAU till I got the book. I have not bothered with recipes I wanted in formation. It was suggesting when you do lose some weight your body can plateau so now adjust the numbers to reflect how we need less calories and carbs as we weigh less.
It has worked for me for sure Pat in Maine.
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----just be consistent with yer calories--be happy------It will come off--and if yu weren't Sparking--it would just go go up--(the weight)---You have a beautiful child----nice to chat with yu this morning-Lynda--in the bush-(Northern Ontario)
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Don't forget vitamins ! And lots of them.the B vitamin s are helpful for fatigue,calcium1500 -1800 mg. in divided doses, vitamin D, multipal vitamin Twice a day, acid large dose of C,
.t takes a while after losing lg amts of weight to SEE the new you in the mirror.i would look and only see The Fat Girl. Shopping for clothes I still gravitated to the Plus sized ....and couldn't find a thing to wear!what finally helped me was Photos of myself , going out all dressed up. Suddenly I could see the real new me,who went from a 46 H bra to 34 dd. I had Bones on my chest( aka Ribs) never saw them in my life( and Im 63!) every one gave you some very good advice.
Congrats on your 120 pound weight loss, great job. It was hard work for sure
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Get your iron tested, iron deficiency can be totally debilitating to the point where you can't even get out of the chair. While you are at it check your Vitamin D. Deficiencies can play hell with how you feel.
I'm feeling your frustration with the weight not coming off now when it did before. I'm trying hard to get this menopausal weight off and it's stuck like glue!!!
Maybe your hormones, like mine, are all over the place. Doesn't make life any easier though I know. Just keep plugging on and hopefully, if you are eating healthily it should eventually drop off.
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Could it be muscle gain? Just a thought. We all struggle though, that's why we're here. Hang in there. You can do it!
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True fatigue is nothing to fool around with - it can lead to other forms of illness. Are you getting enough sleep? That's where I'd start - by sleeping 8 hours a night. I can hear you now - I don't have TIME! MAKE time. Sleep is critical to health. Are you taking regular rest days? DO IT!!
I know where of I speak here - 14 years ago I had a virus that led to chronic fatigue syndrome. You DO NOT want to go there!! Exercise is good good good but so is rest rest rest!! Concentrate on making sure every bite of food that enters your body is HEALTHY food - you can stay in calorie range and still eat too much processed, unhealthy food.
If you have less energy now than you used to SOMETHING IS WRONG!! Do not ignore it!! You are too important (if you doubt it, ask your daughter!!)
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I agree that maybe you need to take a break from the extreme workouts. Hang in there. It is a tough road, but you have been doing a great job. You are not a failure! Look at how far you have come. Keep pushing!
1652 days ago
We all struggle! I know this sounds simple, however the way is to keep with the plan. I am right there with you! I had a lost weekend (ate way too much and binged). Monday I was back on the path.
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If what you've been doing isn't working, you need to try something else.
(I know, easier said than done!)
IMO, you need to give yourself a break -- both timewise and mentally -- but there's a way you can do that without giving your body a break.
So you've been doing these extreme workouts for a while now -- and I'm guessing with those you work out at least 6 days a week (of those you listed, I only know P90X and I know that one's 6 days a week), correct?
What if you stopped and tried another form of exercise -- like running or swimming or biking -- but only did them three times a week? I'm not saying push yourself any less than you are right now, I'm just saying to do it in a different way, and concentrate that intense effort into three workouts a week instead of six.
Changing up your routine might confuse your body enough to kickstart the weight loss again AND it would give you a break from having to workout every day!
Whatever you choose to do, DO NOT let this plateau get you down! You're a RockStar at this weight loss thing and you've accomplished so much. This slow-down is likely nothing but your body getting bored -- time to wake it up with something NEW!
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