Most of you think you may know Sprink but you have no idea. Here's a rare look at the bigger picture - and how I am learning to work with insted of against my psych issues - to maintain a more stable"mind's eye. every day! This is, quite frankly "life at the speed of Sprink."
"Sprink" is blessed with multiple psychiatric diagnoses which include (but not limited to):
Bipolar I (Slow cycle, I am manic for days and sleep for days with a few balanced days in between). I E D (Impulsive outburst disorder), ADD and let's round it out with Panic Attacks with Agoraphobia!!! I am going to just touch on the fact that I have issues with Bulemia, being a victim of childhood molestation and was nearly raped in College. An only child of hard working parents I was of course a "Mama's Boy." An adorable yet chubby kid growing up, my covering emotions with food took hold before my teenage years and by Graduation I was over 230 lbs. During my four college wonder-years, I gained 135 lbs more ballooing up to 365 lbs. And while I did briefly drop back down to 220 by June of 1986 (through a medically supervised diet and exercise plan) - I had up until May 30th, of this year done nothing to improve my health. At one point in January the scales tipped over 340 lbs again.
Fast forward to this year, and in May before my Gastric Sleeve Bypass Surgery I had Blood Pressure Readings of 277 / 177 which got me a nice trip to the ER via ambulance - which probably saved my life that night. I always knew this would be the year for major changes in my life - once Medicare and Insurance kicked in - I had no idea that I would in less than six months lose all but 35 lbs of my excess weight, re-learn how to think about my past, health and the people I will share my next 47 years with.
Had I finally been diagnosed correctly before I graduated college - my life might have turned out differently, and frankly I don't care one bit. I AM THIS WAY BECAUSE GOD WANTED ME TO HAVE THESE LIFE TOOLS AND EXPERIENCES FOR THE REST OF MY JOURNEY.
I am so glad that I made this my year of personal change - and that God has put people, tools and resources right in front of me, just when I need it, at the very last moment - He has never failed me.
To learn more about how I changed course in less than 6 months, I have honestly blogged every step of my journey. If you read this one blog, which I wrote a couple weeks back - you will get a crash course on Sprink - How I Feel and Think - and more than couple teachable moments that you can take for the road if you like.
I am blessed to have SparkPeople and an ever growing cast of SparkFriends as part of my new support network. Seldom does anyone tell you the real truth behind their coping with psych issues - and how good life can be when you learn to accept and work with your "mind's eye," When I am manic I let my mind run like the wind - I have worked through the toughest parts of my past at warp speed. When I get depressed I have to be extra dilligent in eating and drinking enough food/fuel each day - and I sleep as much as I need to. No matter how bad right now feels, I hope with some hard work and soul searching you can reach a similar level of self-acceptance and purpose. I know that I along with the SparkTeam members and Spark Friends you meet - will be here to help you every steop of the way.
Hope this was helpful for you and I look forward to meeting my new team members and participating as much as I can -- Be blessed today and every tomorrow, Your friend - "Sprink"