Tuesday, November 13, 2012
For the past month I have thought a lot about losing weight.
So much thinking.
Thoughts. I have so many of them.
And then I go to the internet and search for motivation, calorie intakes, new ideas, things I haven't tried.
Just last week I purchased a package (online) for Cross Fit: Primal Energy to kick my butt back into gear. I was once an athlete afterall. Have I used it? Nope. Is the gym less than a mile away? Yup, totally.
So what's stopping me? I feel like I'm in this funk, this malaise, like there is a fog all around me.
The past year has been very stressful and when I quit my stressful job last July I really didn't start the "new life" I had planned. Instead, I hopped on the couch and "relaxed" for as long as I could. Up until now, really. I think I did need a break. I think I really did have exhaustion. But shouldn't it be healed by now?
I have this feeling that if I just get to the Cross Fit gym ONCE I will be hooked and want to continue. It's just getting there. There's always work or errands or art to make... so I end up putting it off until tomorrow. Or, let's be in honest, if I ended up partying or drinking too much the night before. That will keep me at home.
Ugh! I am disgusted with my lazy self right now.